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Comfort and Hope When You Feel Old and Alone

You’ll find the best advice for coping with being old and alone in the comments section below. My tips may help when you feel lonely and tired, but my readers’ comments are more thoughtful and comforting! They are your companions. You’ll see you’re not alone (even if you are old 🙂 ).

If you recently lost someone you love, you may find Words of Comfort When Your Heart is Broken helpful. No matter how old you are or how lonely you feel, sometimes you just need to hold on to that last shred of hope and life. Maybe it’s a comforting verse or warm memory. Maybe you feel less alone when you’re around other people. Maybe you need to spend more time in public places, absorbing the energy and conversation of people you don’t even know.

I’m glad you’re here. I’m sorry you feel lonely, and I wish you didn’t feel old! But you’re here, and you matter. We need you. The world needs your spirit, your breath, and your presence. Your life isn’t over, and you are more necessary and loved than you think. You’re coping with a spell of loneliness, you may feel as old and dry as the dust bowl in the Great Depression…but here you are in my She Blossoms garden.

“Instead of trying to find ways to cope with feeling old and alone, you have to figure out how to be happy where you are with what you have,” says Gillian on How to Create Something New in Your Life – Whatever Your Circumstances. “That is something everyone can do. It doesn’t take money, a life partner, or even health. I have cancer, am disabled, and am stuck in bed most of the time. If you are clinically depressed or anxious, get help. There are free services in most places. If you’re unhappy with your life, try little steps to make it better. Life is hard for everyone, but we can’t allow ourselves to focus on the bad. You have to turn your thoughts to something positive. And there is always something positive.”

Gillian goes on to encourage readers to find something to look forward to each day – especially if you’re stuck in the house or sick with no money. “Start a ritual with a cup of coffee or tea or juice,” she says. “Clean yourself up, put on some music or your favorites morning show, pour your coffee, sit down and write down five good things about your life. Remember to include: clean water on demand, a roof over your head, living in a free country, and no wars or bombs outside your window.”

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Coping When You Feel Old and Alone

She thinks the best thing for folks who feel old and alone is to choose to focus on the good things in your life for five minutes. “Try it every morning for a week,” she says. “If you’re lonely, go online to a pleasant blog like this one and interact with other people. Post a comment. Then go outside. Take a piece of bread and feed the birds. Interact with your world, however you are able.”

How do you feel about being alone, old, lonely? Putting your feelings into words can bring clarity and insight, which might help you feel better. What do you think, what brought you here, who are you, where in the world do you live? Give us a glimpse into your world in the comments section below.

Coping With Loneliness When You’re Old and Alone

I’m writing this for T.S., who is worried she won’t have children and will thus be alone when she’s old. She left the following comment and question on my article about coping with being childless:

“I am slowly coming to terms with the probability that my husband and I will not have biological children….we have spent more than $150,000 on fertility treatments that have gone nowhere. I am now in my late 40′s and the reality of the situation is finally dawning on me. I found comfort in your insights and advice, Laurie, and I agree that a positive attitude and enjoying life to the fullest regardless of whether one has children is the way to go. But one thing that bothers me, that I just can’t come to terms with, is the prospect that my husband and I will end up being old and alone. We are both only children and have no family where we live except for my aging parents. When they die, we will be on our own. I’m terrified of being incapacitated and unable to turn to loved ones for love, company and support. I am equally worried for my husband, that should I die first, he will have to endure this fate as well. I wonder if you have any thoughts on this and how to best deal with this possible scenario? Thanks, T.S.”

One of the most important tips for coping with the fear of aging alone is to remember that you are not alone. So many of us are walking home alone, estranged from family members, feeling lonely and old and sad and tired. We’re all scared to be alone as we age, even when we’re surrounded by loved ones.

Last week, a reader asked for help coping with her husband’s death – she’s elderly and can’t envision life without him. So I wrote Starting Over in Your 60s – After Your Husband Dies. She has children, but she still feels alone, lonely, and afraid in her senior years. Getting old can be scary, but we don’t have to let it overshadow the best parts of our lives. We don’t have to live in fear or helplessly accept feeling old and alone.

Having children does not guarantee comfort or companionship

My 45 year old sister hasn’t talked to my 74 year old mother in over 10 years, and I don’t think that’ll change soon. My mom didn’t do anything to deserve the silent treatment from her daughter. My mom is mentally ill (schizophrenic), but she doesn’t deserve to be cut out of her daughter’s and granddaughter’s lives! No matter how many children you have, there’s no guarantee they’ll want to talk to you when they’re grown.

And, even if your kids like you, there’s no guarantee they’ll live in the same city, state, province, country, or continent as you. My husband and I live in Vancouver, BC; his parents live in Edmonton, AB. My dad lives in Jerusalem, Israel. My mom lives in Saskatchewan, and I don’t even know where my sister is. I haven’t heard from her about ten years. Maybe more, I don’t even know anymore.

Whether you have biological kids or not, there is no guarantee you won’t be alone and lonely in your old age. Many seniors and baby boomers are alone even though they have adult children, because their kids are living their own busy lives. Adult children do not necessarily mean that older people aren’t alone – their kids may be homeless, imprisoned, or physically or emotionally unable or unwilling to be family.

Create your own “family” – don’t count on relatives to keep you company

If you don’t want to be alone when you’re old, now is the time to start making friendships and building ties that will last long after you’re dead. I think that having biological kids is probably the least effective way to ensure you’re not alone as you age! There are too many unknowns. What if your child is physically or chronically ill from birth onwards? What if your child passes away before you do? What if you get divorced, and your child prefers your spouse to you?

Instead of counting on kin to keep you company or take care of you during your twilight years, start making connections with people you wish were your family. Non-family relationships can be deeper and easier than family relationships, because they come without the baggage of the past.

Never let one person or thing become the center of your life

If you only have your spouse to rely on and something happens to him, then you’ll be lost. If your career is your primary source of fulfillment and you lose your job, then you’ll be more alone than you ever thought possible – and you won’t even be that old! If your children are your only source of fulfillment and they distance themselves from you, then you’ll feel like you’ve lost everything.

To cope with being alone in your old age – to cope with all of life’s ups and downs – create a strong network of love and support. Cherish your neighbors, colleagues, old friends, hobbies, activities. If something happens to one of the most important parts of your life, then you’ll have the other ones to gain comfort from.

Pretend you’re a caterpillar: the more legs you have, the less you’ll notice if you lose one.

Volunteer as a Big Sister

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Volunteer your time instead of feeling old and alone!

One of the best ways to cope with being alone in your old age is to volunteer! Spend time with an at-risk youth who needs a mentor, a positive role model, through the Big Brothers/Big Sisters organization. I was a Little Sister when I was 11 years old; my Big Sister changed my life. We’re still in touch to this day – 30 years later! She changed my life…and she never had kids. She lives inToronto, and her family lives here in BC…and I see her once a year.

When I worked as a Mentoring Coordinator with Big Brothers of Greater Vancouver, my volunteers said that their friendships with their Little Brothers went from volunteering to family. I’ve applied to be a Big Sister, and the caseworker said the same thing: your relationship with your Little Sister changes. It’s not about volunteering anymore.

Sometimes the relationships you make when you volunteer can be deeper and better than your family. Of course, there’s no guarantee – some matches never really click, or they fade away as the years go on. However, if you’re scared of being alone in your old age, now is the time to deliberately choose to build healthy relationships with people.

If you’re struggling with loneliness – and a new chapter of life that you didn’t plan – read Hope for a New Beginning When You Don’t Want to Be Alone.

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89 thoughts on “Comfort and Hope When You Feel Old and Alone”

  1. I am 40 years old with 3 kids and husband . I have mum who is 67 and live on her own in another county . When I ask her if she ever feels lonely – she replies that she misses her grandchildren but never feels lonely – she read books , made plenty of friendships and colleagues , from neighbors and ect ( most of them later in life ) ;!they visit each other, make birthday parties , just they do different things . ; she has little garden ; loves crochets , music , some actors. She comes to visits us regularly but she is never sad or depressed to go to her “empty” home , even more she wants relax and enjoy her own things . I really do admire my mum and wish to be like her

  2. “The world needs your spirit, your breath, and your presence. Your life isn’t over, and you are more necessary and loved than you think.”

    Sentences like this are written without considering that they may not be true at all. As a result, it annoys me to see them sprinkled so haphazardly into writing.

    I am a widow. My parents, my in-laws, my husband, and my sister died within a period of 12 months. My 30 year old single son lives 2000 miles away and is overwhelmed with work life. I live in a farm town of 400 people who are tightly connected as descendants; my husband and I moved here 8 years ago.

    I have my land, cat, a computer, books, TV, music and enough money to pay the bills but gas is a no no. There are no stores here, not community groups unless you like football at the school or go to church. I did neither.

    I get by. I stay busy. I can go months without a conversation other than the cat. No one needs me and no one misses me. I am not necessary to anyone. I accept that.

    I used to enjoy holidays, Christmas etc. Now, I just ignore then. I have found that that helps me not feel loss. The greatness about days is that they simply pass by.

    I was depressed after everyone died. I noticed people suddenly being kind to me, which was fake friendship in my eyes. It made the giver feel good but had nothing to do with caring about me. But when you give up expectations, you can live as the cat lives.

    I am fine. There is no Christmas tree or decorated house here. There is little food but there is so much to learn. That is my focus. I program. All day. I bake. I garden. I exercise

    What I worry about is a cedar shake roof that needs 20k to be replaced yesterday. I cannot borrow and do not have the money. My plan, at 67, is to replace each shake one by one myself starting this spring.

    My other worry is health. There is no one to take care of my house or pay the bills if I get sick or die. For obvious reasons, sickness is more a concern than dying. No answers to that yet. It will all work out though. Everything always does.

    Anyway, I just wanted to say that acceptance of reality means calmly accepting that you are not needed, necessary or important. Hanging onto that causes far more pain as it creates expectations and disappointment.

    I have to go have coffee now and talk to myself. Another day has come for all of us. Enjoy the sun light.

  3. Deborah,
    Your story is so uplifting. Coping with deep loss is hard to describe but you have. My first husband died when I was 30,leaving me alone with 2 children. What a mess I was. Nothing can compare to having the strength and inner reserves to cope and continue with living. That journey is life’s important lesson. Thank you for sharing. God bless you

  4. Dear Laurie, I applaud the thoughts you shared in this article, …Coping when you feel old and alone…Having grown up in an emotionally abusive environment with no positive relationship with my mother or father now deceased, my goal was to create my own loving family, and I was blessed…until in 2004 the oldest of 2 sons was KIA in the war on terrorism, then in 2014 my husband died from cancer. My only other child and son had his own grief and life to move on with and we lived 800 miles apart. I have no grandchildren. I have had to slowly develop a new life that has not been easy for me as my husband and I were not part of “groups” or “organizations”. It was just the 2 of us. He was a career military man. Our lives were not static in one location. Although retired, our home and life were “each other.” Although I know hundreds of people across the nation due to being linked through our connection to the military and the numerous families we connected with because of war and our losses, everyone still has their own life and families. I was suddenly alone in the middle of nowhere and over five years now I have stumbled, crawled, cried and screamed to discover who I am and what to do to find fulfillment in being alone without my husband. Together we had a mission through our non profit to support veterans, military and families of the fallen in honor of our deceased son. A mission I couldn’t continue alone without my husband. I was blessed to be able to travel and visit friends across the country after his death, but of course, we all return home to the empty home and sound of silence. I accepted invitations out with some acquaintances, only to feel I didn’t fit. I have gone through the anger, jealousy and resentment of others around me celebrating family events with their spouses, children, & grandchildren. I’ve had a psychiatrist and the medications. I could go on and on. But after a blood curdling scream alone in my bathroom one night, and the bursting of a dam of tears which I realized I had not done in 4 1/2 years after my husband’s death, it was as though something within me exploded forth like lava from a volcano. I decided I HAD to stop depending on a new joy or happiness to come to me from people and environments around me, I had to go within and become self aware of so many things about myself, and ask myself hard questions about my spirituality, my insecurities, my God given gifts that I was not using and HOW I could use them to feel I still had purpose as I grow older while being alone. Now, each morning after feeding my Yorkie and Cat, I sit with my coffee and give myself permission to remain in my robe and slippers, as I am this moment, and read spiritually lifting articles from the internet, as yours, and also to read motivating quotes while listening to calming music. I also write these quotes in a journal because I believe in the power of writing. Recently, I have gone to bed and along with talking to God, I ask my husband to wrap his spiritual energy arms around me and help me with a good nights sleep. If my lower back is aching, I ask him to massage it as he did in those days when we physically lay side by side with one another. I admit that although I have made strides in locating a beautiful place that I enjoy volunteering that has to do with nature, and I seek speaking engagements to encourage others, I strive daily to keep my mind from taking over in negative ways by reminding myself that I’m not alone in learning to live a new norm in the face of becoming a widow. Hugs and blessings to all.

  5. I am 74. I was molested as a child until the age of 13. I told my mother about it multiple times and she did nothing except to seemingly to despise me for it. I have had self loathing and hatred all of my life. I have never felt loved (except by my 2nd husband and my children [but just when they were small) I have never felt smart, competent or pretty. Just a big zero all of my life. I never said anything to anyone about these feelings. Everyone always talked about how laid back I was. But I wasn’t laid back at all. I was just trying to be still. Invisible. People, especially now at my age, don’t want to be bothered by your worries they’ve got their own concerns. I was a nurse for 51 years. It brought me satisfaction and quiet joy to be able to help someone who was unable to help themselves at a vulnerable time in their life. But that is behind me now and it was time, I was slowing down physically and mentally.and other nurses can be very vicious when you start getting old, just like society. My 2nd husband died almost 9 years ago and I have been in a state of suspended animation since then. He was the extrovert, I was the introvert (and painfully so). I don’t go anywhere now. I don’t even want to. How can anyone like you when you hate yourself? If I am away from home for over 30 minutes I get extremely anxious and fearful. I am on antidepressants. I cant tell if they help or not. I have some orthopedic problems from arthritis. I hurt every day but it hasn’t killed me yet. I know what is to become of me but I don’t know when it will get here or if I will have to suffer before I go

  6. I write, I relax I’m not real unhealthy but I want to sleep and not wake up. I’ve survived so many situations. I am a sexual abuse survivor. Came from a hateful mother. There is too much and a cup of tea or yoga is not going to ease the past nor help me facing poverty, and being alone. I had friends there were two for over 40 years but they have husbands and things change. The old are not wanted. I don’t even like us.

    1. I am 74, widowed, alone and like you was molested as a child until is was 13 years old. I told my mother multiple times about it but she did nothing except to seemingly despise me for it. I have hated myself all of my life and it seems like it will never end until I die. I am widowed and have grown children and they have busy lives with little time to babysit me. Their was a lot of history between their dad (my first husband) and he is dead. There are unresolved issues with their childhood. My (2nd) husband was my friend but now he is gone. I worked as a nurse for 51 years then I retired and now I am truly alone and hate myself for my selfpitying thoughts. If your parents don’t love you who can love you? I asked myself that question all my life but I always faked it and no one ever knew. I have become so isolated I don’t go anywhere except for a doctors appointment” etc But it is like telling someone to drive across the country and they have never been behind the wheel. I am so frozen inside knowing that people in any group or club wouldn’t want to be around me. I am on antidepressants etc and go to every self help group I can find only to not keep track of the sites. So I muddle on, hoping for a miracle

  7. Oliver Hartford Smyth

    On anxiety meds for the last forty years to control reactions from six severe concussions. Been to licensed “doctors “ of the pseudo science of psychology. Got drugs that literally eliminated my mind. Taken off these drugs by my pcp. Now I am 65. Facing the reality of the old. Shattered my left leg, ankle and foot at age 20 arthritis heard about the break and moved in. Had broken my right ankle at age 14. Arthritis has relatives and they moved in. Because of ankle injuries my knees are bad. Had right knee totally replaced ( my opinion; never replace the knee unless it locks up) 24/7-365 pain from knee replacement. Left knee now hurting and causing me to walk off gate that causes me to sprain my weakened left ankle often. I was recently diagnosed with degenerative rheumatoid arthritis in the lower portion of my spine. I have no children because my wife didn’t want any. This alienated my entire blood family from us. Not even a Christmas card even though I still send each of them one. I have been active all my life but now I am not able or strong enough to do many of the things I used to do. My “ friends “ for whom I helped with their own house, food for their families, and cash to pay their bills are suddenly too busy to call me on the phone or to talk to me when I call them. In my book they don’t owe me anything. But, my life proves beyond a shadow of a doubt that in the end the only person who you can count upon is yourself. Potassium nitrate is looking better and better to me now but I am not the suicide type. Old age without vast sums of money (aka friends) cash is brutal.

  8. I will be 79 later this month. How I wish I had read this in my sixties. Old age hit me like a cold wet rag in my face. There are no golden years. I think that was a myth sold to the public by promoters to insure their steady income. My life was my family. They all grew up and moved away. My husband and I are homebound. He has Alzheimer’s. The only people that come are paid help. My youngest who is our POA tries to come from time to time. But she has her own life. My eldest daughter who we helped the most left. She has not spoken to us in 6 months. I do not even know why as I always thought we had a healthy loving relationship. Our grandchildren moved on after they grew up. So I am here trying to learn how I can help my husband and I not to feel so lonely.

  9. Well it is certainly very bad for many of us single good men that were really hoping to find love with the right woman which never happened, as much as we really wanted since being single and all alone today isn’t really fun at all these days. Growing old and all alone is like a very slow and painful death for us, which Cancer kills much quicker.

  10. Notice i am 70, had my spleen removed after an accident.I was run over in a road traffic accident when I was 8 years old.that’s 62 years a go,I have never had any restrictions on my life style meeting new friends,worrying about germs and all the other things you mentioned in your comment so I say get on with it and enjoy your life to the full, good luck dav e

  11. I fell ill thru an iatrogenic injury( dr. Caused) bia prescribed medications which damage brains and cns. Resulting in akayhisia, chronic insomnia, many additional horrifying synptoms. Basically Housebound almost 3 years. I moved to srnior community..it was ok, nit much intellectual stimulation..fell so ill, gossip started, basically abandoned by neighbors.. My Sister walked away after I gave my time and efforts to help her during her cancer scare. 3 a.m. Here and sitting here writting out of depair. No pets, too fearful I couldnt take good care of them. Alone most if the time. Haha d, due to others around me, but at a distance. Id love to be in the country where I could sit outside, get a little walk, companionship. Ah well. Thats my plight in short.

  12. I am 66. I Have gi issues which put me on disability, keep me in the house and now mobility issues from a bad neck. I lost my spleen two years ago from a botched colonoscopy so surgery for my spine in out of the question, having pets not recommended due to germs that could be life threatening to someone with no spleen and obviously I have to be very careful around people (hygiene) I am single. How do you make friends and build a network of support when you are stuck in the house, in pain and have limited mobility and have to worry about germs every time you step outside. I was told no crowded places, no movies, mall, avoid public transportation, etc. etc. I was told to age in home as opposed to living in a senior citizen close quarters environment, or assisted living situation. I am alone and worry if I develop a fever, i have nobody to even take my to the ER.. SO how do I build a network. My friends live far way in different states, my mother is 92, my neighbor i was close to just moved away and I am scared and afraid being so isolated. I am no longer able to even drive 4 hours to visit my mom . This is not how I THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD END UP.

  13. I’d love to be a Big Sister, but I’m 66 years young! Maybe, Big Gramma.. lol There is a young girl in my building being abused.. I’m sure. I’m positive. She is only 11 years young. I can’t take her in but please, find a better home for her! Her Mother is ailing and abusive. She is a great kid with limited possibilities with her Mother. The Mother is divorced.. second husband/ good man, but not his child. He takes cares of her mom. PLEASE… The Mother is horribly abusive, even in public! I’d love to help, but how can I?

  14. Good counsel. I feel desperately lonely. I know that I’m fortunate in enjoying good health, an attractive apartment and adequate income. But my daughter and grandkids live in another state, though we speak every day. My wife and I are living apart and I miss her enormously. My last friend in my ‘hood is leaving on Monday.
    I’ve tried the dating sites but nothing seems to work. I can’t even find a therapist that has room in his/her practice. Your advice, please

    1. Malcolm,
      I highly recommend any Jordan Peterson lectures/discussions on depression/anxiety. There are numerous examples on You Tube. If you don’t know of him, he is a clinical psychologist who has risen to meteoric fame largely for his unique ability to connect with people on a very personal level. Treat yourself to a few hours of his insight, wisdom and above all compassion. Not only will you find his expertise helpful, you will save a fortune in therapist fees. Take each day or hour at a time. Be well and good luck. Ian

  15. I;ve tried to reach out to people but it doesnt’ work.
    Women of my age are usually married or have a partner and it’s difficult if not impossible to make friends of them. Usually the husband doesn’t like it because he thinks you are taking too much of his wifes time away from him, or on the other hand the wife gets suspicious because she thinks you are trying to steal her husband ! you can’t win.
    Recently I met a lady of my own age, living on her own, we were so alike, like two peas in a pod, our lifes history was so similar it was almost a mirror image.
    She said how pleased she was that we had met and we should meet up for coffee and chats. of course I agreed. After a couple of weeks I texted her and suggested a meeting, she replied saying yes, she would like that, she was going away for the weekend and would get in touch when she got back to arrange, so what happened ? nothing, zero ! I felt silly because I felt she didn’t mean what she had said and I felt very disappointed and let down, I was looking forward to welcoming her into my home, I made it nice, bought flowers, made cakes etc., but she just ignored me.
    I haven’t heard from her, I know she’s still ‘around’ because I’ve seen her car, but I won’t contact her again, that is the last time I will try for friendship, I don’t need to be ignored like that, but it was especially hurtful because of her attitude, I genuinely thought she liked me and we would become friends.
    So now I will stay on my own I don’t want to keep on being hurt.

    1. Wean,
      I get where you’re coming from. As a 65 year old divorced woman it’s hard to make new female friends, especially when they are involved with husbands and family.. I joined a group of women in the neighborhood who formed a “gal’s group” The first few outings were fun and we all got along great. But somehow it morphed into a couples thing. So now I get to see all their group outings on social media as happy couples enjoying themselves. Of course I am never invited because I’m solo. There is a perverse part of me that can’t wait until they become widows and then get to walk in the single woman shoes. Going back to your single friend….I would give her one more text. It could be that she lost your number or is going through a bad time herself. Give her the benefit of the doubt. If you get the cold shoulder again, then I would write her off.

  16. Hello,
    This is what is working for me….74 will be 75 shortly…divorced for 20 years….live alone…Very particular who I let into my life.
    I do not drink
    I do not use any kind of drug…no prescriptions either.
    I do not smoke.
    I am a Vegetarian
    I am healthy….and wok at it.
    Have not been to a Doctor in 40 years….
    Have a small business that I love….so it does not feel like work.
    I believe we are not alone (this is not about religion)….and it is not about another person….it is about us and what we think about, and how we feel about what we think about….and we can completely control that…no matter what!
    Good Wishes to All

  17. I really enjoyed your article, Laurie. It has made me do a lot of thinking–thinking I’ve done for a long, long time. I’m 62 and have been divorced since 1989. My ex-wife remarried and I’m so glad to see she married a man who is a good person and works hard. He obviously loves her and it appears she has found the man she always wanted. A big plus was he was a great step-father to my young children at the time. My ex always allowed me to see our children and spend all the time I wanted with them. It was good for my kids, of course, and me. I have a good, very civil relationship with my ex and her husband–I couldn’t have asked for more. They have even included me in a few of their family gatherings a few times. I think the world of my former in-laws; they were always good to me.

    If you’re suspicious I have never let go of my ex and former in-laws you are wrong. (I’m not trying to demean you.) I greatly respect them all and I’ve tried to keep things good between us all–especially for my kids who are grown and on their own and doing very well. I feel so lucky.

    As for me, I married too young (24). I wasn’t ready to take on such an upheaval to my life. I was in the military when I divorced and had a great deal of difficulty trying to balance home and military obligations. My ex got fed up with the military way-of-life for non-military members and decided she wanted to be close to her parents. I think on my ex’s list of priorities, I was way down the list below her mom and dad and our kids. She’d deny it and we never talked about it, but I always felt that way. Part of my problem was I was still trying to figure out if the military-way-of-life was what I really wanted. I served another five years after my divorce.

    With hardly any money to spend on myself and living in non-accompanied member dormitories–often with people young enough to be my kids–I wasn’t exactly a good “catch” for a woman and a future with her. The divorce rate among military members is very high so I spent a lot of time at work and in counseling which helped me at the time so I never dated. A asked two women during this time for a date, but they declined. I left the service at 38 and quickly found a job close to my kids. Still with almost no cash to spend on myself, I never dated and lived in a room of a large home with three other people. There was a woman I met who liked me and vice-versa, but I had plans to move away for a higher-paying job and didn’t continue that acquaintance. We only met for lunch; she had to get home to card for her young son. Thus, really no time to start a relationship. When the job I hoped for came through, I finally moved away, but by that time this woman and I were no longer meeting on our lunch break.

    I loved my new job and people with whom I worked and saved all the money I could to get out of debt and save for retirement. By this time I’m in my forties. As you might figure, I never dated. I finally found and discovered who I am and what I wanted. As my kids grew, I was able to see them any time I wanted. I never went to any work-place parties/social events and the like; the few times I DID go it was all couples so I stopped going since I felt so out-of-place.

    Now I’m 62 and retired, my kids still live close-by and I’ve always had a great relationship with them. One is married and lives just a few minutes away. I live in a college town home to a major university so there are a lot of women around my age who live here. But it seems whomever I meet is married, engaged, or is seeking someone who can provide for them in the future. I had one tell me she didn’t want to be a care-taker again in her later years and some gave me the impression I was after their money, One of their children even asked me what my intentions were. I guess my answer to them wasn’t adequate so I let that woman go after three or four dates.

    I’m at a loss. This college town, of course, has a lot of social activities and I check the list of “meet-ups” in the area each week but they’re geared towards the younger folks and not seniors like myself. I know myself pretty well now and know I could be a wonderful partner to someone, but things never get past a few dates (a few meaning three or four where I’ve lived now for fourteen years).

    I apologize for the long narrative, but I HAD to get it out. My former co-workers (whom I love and miss) have no time for me. I want so much to find someone special to love and cherish and to treat as if they ARE wanted…but I’m lost. I feel like everyone has a special partner but me. (I know that’s certainly not the case but it is how I feel.)

    Thank you for reading this. I don’t know what answer I’m asking of you, but simply that you recognize my plight is good enough for me.

    I keep up hope, but it seems like a helpless situation for me.

    I enjoy reading articles and comments to presentations like yours; they help keep me going.

    Have a wonderful day. My best to you all…

  18. Fight The Good Fight

    I don’t know if my comment can help anyone but I would like to state that I’m turning 40 in January and my biggest fear is living past 65 in today’s culture and especially here in South Africa, my motherland. Today’s people and cultures seem obsessed with youth when we should be learning from the wisdom of our elders and ensuring that they are cherished and venerated. You are all heroes and heroines in my eyes because you are facing my biggest fear head-on, and I’ve been called a brave woman myself (three years in landmined, guerilla-occupied territory during a civil war, people dying in front of me and one in my arms, over 3,000 hours on unsafe aircraft that could have got shot down or just crashed at any second, held up at knifepoint for my sneakers and refused to hand them over kind of brave). Your suffering is real and valid and heartbreaking to me and I salute you. And I am not the only one who can see your beauty and wisdom and strength and endurance and all you have sacrificed for my generation and those who came after us. God sees you, and His place of light and rest is so magnificent and you will see it when He calls you. (I got a sneak preview when I died in hospital). Go well, brave warriors, and may God be with you.

    1. Be thankful that you have your children and your ex includes you in family events. I’m 62 and in the same situation but never had children and only one estranged sibling several states away. At least you’re not totally alone. Holidays are the worst.

    2. I am reaching out because I am searching how to survive this phase of my life. I am 79. I poured myself into my family, and for the various reasons you mentioned above. They grow up and leave. A daughter who shut me out for reasons I do not understand. But that’s bec oming easier to cope with as I come to realize that the problem is within herself…and truly because I know her past and her challenges in life growing up I understand why she responds as she does. I just do not know what “I” did wrong to cause her to react this way towards me. From my point of view I thought we had a loving relationship. My husband and I are now home bound due to his diagnosis of .Alzheimer’s. He is under the care of VA. He has also dealt with melanoma that has spread. And although clear for now we have been told this is only temporary. Our youngest daughter is our P.O.A. I am going to try to do as you advised. Right now we are totally alone. I want to move beyond this feeling of drowning. In closing due to my own health challenges I am not able to do simple thing like enjoying a meal with others. I pour myself into gardening, get my husband to be outside with me if only to sit and enjoy the outdoors. My Facebook is covered with gardening groups. The only people who visit are paid to be here. Cleaning lady, (takes us to Dr app. and shopping)’ our gardener, (once, twice a month), two people engaged weekly for four hours each to socially stimulate my husband. I stay out of this for the most part.

  19. Sadly Single And Not My Choice

    Being single and alone all the time is very unhealthy as well when you have no one to share your life with.

    1. I’m 56.. been single and alone for 7 yrs.. no sex.. nobody to talk to… no love.. nobody to go anywhere with. I have no family.. no friends.. I’m a loser.. nobody likes me. I have health issues that give me pain all the time. I have thought of suicide over and over… some day I know I’ll do it… when I finally snap and can’t take it anymore.

      1. No, Frank; you won’t someday ‘do it’. You are too valuable. If you’re a loser then so am I. I was feeling so incredibly alone, until I read your post–it might as well have been about me. Please make a decision *today* to not ever even think of suicide. If you had not been here, I would have not have been encouraged today.

        I, too, feel as you do….almost exactly. No one to do anything with. It’s like a death sentence that we got without committing a murder, except our own. I am going to try somehow to not feel this constant death inside. I know that I want to be around and with others, but it is not that easy. I have chronic health/pain issues from a car accident years ago, and no matter how hard I try and with the constant reaching out to others, it never works–they never reach back.

        I am exhausted from this way of life, and I wish the emotional and physical pain would stop; but, I am at a loss anymore as to how to make that happen.

        I will make a constant effort to try to remember that God is with me and will give me the strength that I need. Sometimes, though, I just wish it felt a little better doing so. I’m His child through faith in Jesus Christ alone–I’m His problem. He promised that He would never leave me nor forsake me, so it’s entirely up to Him to get that done. It’s all on Him.

  20. There is a lot of shallow naivety in many of these comments. “Just putting on a happy face,” doesn’t alter the harsh realities of older people feeling isolated and lonely. As a 68 year old man, I am considered antediluvian and a vestige of the past by younger folks enveloped by the age of technology. Compelled to move to a strange city at 66 when my former wife took a job, I was left stranded, but dependent on her health care benefits when she found a new man. With no children, no wife, no friends, living in a city whose small town culture is the antithesis of what I am used to, I am a “stranger in a strange land” with no options. My depression is labeled “situational,” and thus chemical or psycho therapy is useless, according to the psychiatrists I have seen. I have just been diagnosed with early onset alzheimer’s, and truly have no where to turn or many options. My pension, savings, social security etc. all will be used for future long term care. Do you think just copping a positive viewpoint and looking at the “glass half filled,” will make life better for myself?
    If people ask for help, get a grasp of reality and some substance. A Hallmark card is not a solution.

    1. I have to live with hardships also. Physical pain due to arthritis is ever present and my husband needs much help due to his stroke. Everyday I have to adjust my thinking to be functional. By nature I love ease perhaps a nice way of describing a lazy tendency. That said, it is important to take care of oneself. I have found that the public library can help. They offer many services such as help learning technology, access to computers. Also book discussion groups offer learning and companionship. Go online for free meditation instruction. Life is often hard but learning to cope can be a rewarding challenge.

    2. Hi Phillip, I just want you to know that I care. We lost our 39 yr old Son this Summer to an accidental heroin overdose. My only Daughter from my first marriage lives in Cali. I am married but have Rhuemetoid arthritis and had to go on disability. My husband is not well either. I am so sorry for your plight. I have true empathy for your situation. I can understand your bitterness for others who tell you to take a happy pill. I would post my phone number on this site for you to have but I would get weirdos using it. Know that I hear your voice and I wish for you Gods Grace. You touched my heart with your situation. Know that it is not time to give up. I also wonder why I am still here sometimes. You are in my thoughts Phillip. Sinserely,Lisa.

  21. I think a good title would be “How to enjoy your life at any age, whatever your circumstances.”

    That’s what we need to do, isn’t? Figure out how to be happy where you are with what you have. That is something everyone can do. It doesn’t take money, a life partner, or even health. (I have cancer, am disable, and am stuck in bed most of the time)

    Look, I’m no Pollyanna. If you are clinically depressed or anxious, please get profession help. There are free services in most places. But if you’re unhappy with your life, try little steps to make it better. Life is hard for everyone. We all have garbage. But you can’t allow yourself to focus on the bad. You have to turn your thoughts to something positive. And there is always something positive.

    Stuck in the house, sick with no money? Sad and lonely? You need something to look forward to each day. Start a ritual with a cup of coffee or tea or juice. Clean yourself up, put on some music or your favorites morning show, pour your coffee, sit down and write down 5 good things about your life. Remember to include:
    Clean water on demand
    A roof over your head
    Living in a free country
    No wars or bombs outside your window

    Decide, DECIDE to focus on the good things in your life for 5 minutes. Try it every morning for a week.

    If you’re lonely, go online to a pleasant blog like this one and interact with other people. Post a comment. People will respond.

    Take a piece of bread and feed the birds outside. Interact with your world however you are able.

    1. Your attitude is commendable. What are the options? Focusing on the garbage as you describe it, is toxic if done too long. Re framing circumstances are often necessary. I so agree with your advice. I, too am thankful and happy to live in a free country without a civil war outside my window. We are blessed with our inspired constitution.

    2. I have been reading the comments on here and started to feel really bad for some of these people But then I came across Sar and I must say you are totally right. I have been feeling so alone and sorry for myself for so so long my only sister who was my best friend has been with the angels now for 6 years and my Mom it has been 2 years and not a day has every gone by that I don’t miss them so much and I hurt and cry everyday over them. The thing is I know that neither one of them would want me to be doing this and I know what they would say to me. I have tried different things to bring me out of it but I fall back into it all over again. Like you said I know there are things to be so grateful for and I really need to focus on those things more and honestly the whole thing is I am just feeling sorry for myself and I am the only one that can bring myself to do a turn around. I am going to write down and start doing some of these suggestions you mentioned. Thank you so much for your encouragement.

  22. Growing old all alone is definitely much harder on us men when you don’t have a love life at all, especially when many of us were very unfortunate when it comes to meeting a good woman to settle down with. Times have really changed today from the good old days when finding real love was very easy back then the way that it happened for our family members since it was a very different time. And our family members were very blessed to be born at a much better time than we were which is why they really met one another in those days with no trouble at all. Both men and women had it very tough in those days struggling to make ends meat since most of them were very poor too at that time. Today the great majority of the women have a career now and are very independent since even i will certainly admit that they don’t need a man to survive anymore like they once did. But this does affect many of us men out there now looking for love since most women now will only want the very best of all and will never ever settle for less. Many women which i will also admit that they are looking for men with only money which is sad that many women today are like this, especially when they didn’t hardly have any money back then. So most of the women today are very spoiled, greedy, selfish, and very money hungry, and unfortunately it is all about them now completely. This obviously makes it very extremely difficult for many of us good men really looking for love since this certainly has a lot to do with it. It is just too very bad that many of us men weren’t born in the old days since most of us that are still single today definitely would have been all settled down by now instead of dealing with this today. Men and women accepted one another back in the old days since that is the way it was at that time, and that is why finding love back then was very easy as you can see. For many of us men it isn’t all about money, and we would just love to meet a good woman to have a relationship with to make us very happy instead of being single and alone all the time.

    1. Ben, I know ZERO women who consider a man’s finances when choosing a date or a mate. All of the women I know are looking for someone who :
      Is kind
      Has a sense of humor
      Treats them with respect
      Values them for who they are as opposed to how they look
      Cleans up after himself and does not expect his partner to be his maid or his mom
      Does things he wants to do and does things she wants to do (without complaining )

      I would guess that your negative attitude about women being selfish, greedy, etc., comes through in the way you act and talk. You are shooting yourself in the foot with your sweeping judgements and, actually, prejudice. If you want to find a good person for a long-term relationship, you might want to change your attitude and become the sort of kind, accepting person who attracts others.

      I would recommend volunteering for a cause you support. You will meet women volunteers who are generous of spirit and have an interest in common with you.

      You would not be attracted to a woman who spoke badly about men. Stop speaking badly of women and give them a fair chance.

      1. What makes it very sad for many of us men is to have women that will Curse at us for no reason at all when we will just say good morning or hello to them to hopefully get a conversation going, but it doesn’t quite work out for many of us men at all. It is very unfortunate that we live in a completely different time today since most of the women today have really changed from the past. And what do many of us men do when we just keep meeting the wrong women all the time? It is very sad for us, especially when we hate being single and alone all the time which can get very depressing for many of us men when it keeps on happening to us. And there are many of us very good men out there that can treat a good woman with a lot of love, respect, and commitment. And we just would love to have just one good woman to make us very happy. Thank you very much for your support.

  23. One thing that struck me in your post was saying that you can’t let fear of getting old ruin the best part of your life. I would like to argue that there is no “best part” of your life. Every age has advantages and disadvantages.

    I am 65 and had to retire early due to illness. I have chronic pain and am pretty much stuck in bed most of the time now. I live alone with my pets. My friends have drifted away and I have no family.

    But I consider myself to be such a lucky person. I have my pets who add so much joy to my life. I have my home, great healthcare, and I’m ok financially. My days are my own to enjoy as I please. I can read or watch movies or surf the web. I have a million hobbies. I can sit outside and enjoy a beautiful day.

    And I can still help other people. I am tech support for my neighbors. I collect clothing and school supplies for local school, all by email. I keep up with the news and politics, and I donate a bit to causes I support.

    Yes, I struggle to clean my home or cook a meal or even take a shower. But there are struggles at every point in life. Yes, I have lots of rough moments. But life is spin! It’s how you react to what happens to you. It’s the story you tell yourself to make sense of it all. If you insist on making the story a positive one, you are the winner.

    1. You hit the nail on the head. We have to view our lives in a positive light otherwise we are self-defeating. You are an inspiration. I have arthritis which causes pain and somewhat ‘limits mobility. However, I am free to pursue interests, live in a stable country, and have the beauty and wonder of life to enjoy. I am blessed. Thank you for sharing.

  24. hello everyone, I’m 72 & I found that joining alanon 18 years ago has saved me from negative attitudes about life, relationships & loneliness. It saved me because I learned the daily practice of gratitude.. I start at letter A & go all the way to Z finding things I am grateful for.. one of my fav is letter L. I’m grateful for Life. Life is an amazing gift we are given.
    A – thankful for delicious apples
    B – thankful for so much beauty I find in nature especially springtime blossoms & flowers
    C – thankful for cats. I love little cuddly cats who purr. Just looking at pictures of cats makes me smile
    S – thankful for smiles, friendly smiles
    The best things in life are ‘free’ the stars belong to everyone, the moon shines there for all of us & sunshine on my shoulders makes me happy
    There are a million reasons to feel happy every day if u but look for them instead if dwelling constantly on your problems. Look around for solutions.. go for a walk in a park or in the mall if it’s raining.. take a walker or wheelchair if that’s needed.. just don’t give up Believe me there are others worse off than you think you are.. what about starving refugees or children with terminal cancer facing death before they even get to live.
    Feeling sorry for oneself is only a trick your mind plays on you & the antidote is pracyucing daily gratitude & taking small actions to help yourself. If you truly are physically unable to get out at least open a window & watch the seasons come & go. Get on the phone & talk to charible organizations such as Salvation Army, who may be able to send someone to your house to bring you interesting books to read or funny movies to watch.. or a nice treat like an ice cream.. ask if someone can bring a little puppy or cat to visit you once a week.. ask & he shall find
    If you never ask, you will never know what good things really can come along.. Call a church office & inquire if they have or know of friendly visitor programs (people willing to visit you for a nice chat & tea & cookies)
    These may not be your dream-come-true ideal relationships but giving volunteers are wonderfully caring people who can bring a measure of love, a warm hug & smile into your world.. it’s ok to need connections. It’s human. It’s normal. God Bless you on your journeys through life.. relish life no matter what comes.

    I’ve learned a lot about expectations over the years & how we expect others (from parents to friends to mates to grown choldren) to be who We expect them to be, or to fit the script we’ve set for them in our mind.. instead of lovingly accepting them just the way the are, & afterall isn’t that how we ourself wish to be accepted.. The golden rule is a great way to live “Do unto others as you would like others to do unto you”
    Happiness is first & foremost an inside job.
    No one can hand it to us. We are only as happy as we make up our mind to be.
    We may have aged & we may have various health & mobility issues but we always have power of choice.. for example, I recently purchased a mobility scooter.. candy apple red looks good on me.
    I have been single since age 59 & actually like it.. it beats being with a partner who brings me down . I believe in being around people who lift me up. I get lonely like everyone else but i understand its just a part of being human.. & its not a permanent thing, since our moods & feelings are transient & come & go & change all the time. Four of my closest old friends live a long distance away but I refuse to let a little thing like distance come between us.. we regularly share emails, pictures, daily happenings & even jokes. I am very blessed to have 2 loving grown children but it was not always the case.. our relationships were rocky for years but I never stopped sending them loving notes & cards. I apologised & made amends to them for the sins of my own youth.. we gradually grew close & today I have 2 grandkids (one boy, one girl) who are the loves of my life. It is fascinating to me how my grandkids especially love me totally unconditionally. Even tho I’m a broken down old lady they tell me they love me.. I’ve never had a mate love me unconditionally like that.. & I believe God loves all people unconditionally & Jesus was our example of how to love others. He was full of caring & forgiveness. Even on the cross facing death Jesus prayed “father forgive them they know not what they do”
    I’ve learned to pray for people who don’t seem to like me.. & find we are able to be cordial & polite.. one thing I know it’s not about me anyhow.. it’s only about them & their issues.. it isn’t personal at all (maybe I just remind them of a nasty aunt.. ha ha)
    thinking this way saves me many a heartache

      1. Dear Fight the Good Fight
        Thank you for replying.. to me, Marion.
        I just found your reply today.
        I will pray for you that when your times comes you will see beautiful angels lovingly guiding you
        & that Jesus will be with you every step of the way..
        & know that my heart & compassion is with you dear new friend.. did u ever hear the expression ”a stranger is only a friend we haven’t met”

        I have a 95 year old mother who inspires me with her cheery attitude no matter what happens. Even tho my dad is gone 9 years she still lives in the little 2-bed house they built. She loves alone with her special kitty cat & has home aids come in. She regularly tells funny cat-adventure stories that makes me laugh. I try to be like her. I go out of my way to find tv shows or movies that make me laugh.. Halifax comedy Hour is a favourite.. I love the ways stand up comedians can laugh at life.
        I wish I had words to say that may bless you, but here’s a little poem/song at least..

        Bright stars are watching the world as it sleeps.
        Shepherds watch over the little white sheep.
        The lighthouse is shining for ships far at sea.
        And God keeps the night watch for you & for me
        So sleep sleep in peace & rest
        Dont be afraid of the darkness
        All Is well, for over the land & the sea,
        Our God keeps the nightwatch for you & for me.. Blessings & Love I send to you across heavenly skies of blue. ?

  25. I’m a Male.. 55.. No family left alive.. never had children… haven’t been with a woman in 7 yrs.. I am completely alone. I have no friends at all. I spend all my time alone… I’ve lost interest in even leaving my apt… I make 11$ an hr in a job I hate.. but it’s all I can do and nobody seems to want to give me a chance and hire me for anything else. So… I barely survive.. I’m scared to death.. I think of suicide all the time.. I’ve even written a goodby note… I talk to nobody for long periods of time.. because I have no one to talk to except at work. I watch tv and play video games… it’s all I do. I don’t know what to do… I tried church.. tried religion.. but nothing worked. I pray to God daily.. beg for help.. beg for some kind of guidance.. but nothing changes.. and I don’t know what to do to change it. I’ve lose all my self esteem and self confidence.. I don’t trust my own decisions. I’m scared to try anything thinking it could actually get worse. I have physical problems but no insurance and my job gives no benefits… I haven’t been to a doctor in over 7 yrs… can’t afford it. High blood pressure, pain in my left shoulder from an old injury that won’t go away, Lost hearing in my right ear and scared I’m losing in my left. If I lose my hearing I will lose my jobs and I’m finished. I’ve told myself that If I ever become homeless I’ll end my life first.

    1. Your situation sounds difficult, but it is completely understandable why you feeling the way you do. Being isolated and cut off from all people and having no social support will do that to you unfortunately.
      I’d have suggested seeing a counselor as a first step but then I read that you don’t have insurance at the moment. I was wondering, however, that in the state/city you live in there was may be some probono therapist available that volunteer their time and you could see for free. I’d do some internet search to find out as this is not uncommon! Its worth the try.

      There are also many on-line forums available for people who are alone, as well as support groups. Please try to look into a few of those as they can be extremely helpful to ease loneliness, or just vent to get things off your chest. Meetup.com is also a great place to find likeminded people that you could connect with in real life. Most groups are free and you can find all sorts to join depending on your interests. There’s for instance hiking groups that meet once a week (if you are into hiking). It costs nothing to go. Or there are book clubs, spiritual groups, volleyball, over 50’s group, dinner night groups (that probably will costs a little to pay for your food)., etc. Anything that you can imagin exists on Meetup. It is a truly great way for adults to make new friends and to build a support network around you.

      I just feel like you need to get out ASAP and start connecting with people before it’s too late. Please don’t wait for too long! Reach out any way you can and don’t give up!! Your life can and will change for the better once you begin to make steps!

      1. You gave excellent advice. Stressing where there is a Will there is a way and providing concrete steps was so helpful. Looking at websites and taking the first step is the answer for many.

      2. Viv is so right.

        I finally put up an ad on Craigslist for people who were maybe in my same situation.

        You would not believe how many responses I received! Yes, the weeding out of the bunch was a little time consuming (very interesting) 🙂 …but I have gotten to know some really nice people and we really are in the same situation.

        I have also joined two MeetUp groups….so scary at first. I am on a fixed income so many of their activities, no, I may not be able to do. But many I can and the fact that I know that there are others out there in the world, in our neighborhood, down the street, in a closer town, etc.

        We, as humans are all fighting for something in our lives….Mine not be the same as yours, or the person you stand next to in the grocery store. But if we are still here, then we need to try to participate.

        I understand not having any health insurance and its very frustrating…so many alternatives that we can look for though. If you work during the day, I am confident to say that it is very hard for you to find the help that you need. Its time consuming, call here, no, call there, referred here,,,etc. But it is possible.

        I do not attend church regularly, the small town I am in,,,a single female,,,well, lets just say singles in general are ostracized and I do not understand that.

        I have tried many denominations and I find I get more out of Church TV then any. And lots of your local churches are on TV on Sunday mornings.

        I as Viv cannot say enough about the MeetUp groups and they give you the option to start one of your own!

        Please keep us posted, I think many of us are genuinely concerned for your well being…


    2. You know as I read through these posts I have come to the conclusion that there is not one positive answer that fits “all” due to the circumstances that each one of us is in. Someone in their 60s cannot tell someone in their 80s how to approach their situation because the younger one has absolutely no idea what life in their 80s is like. Nor can the person with cancer tell others how to approach life because that person’s circumstances and experiences are totally different from others. When already suffering due to the circumstances you’re in, it is frightening to reach out and as one wrote, then be rejected. All one can do is follow as best as we all positive suggestions that are written here by the administrator of this group. I remember once sitting in Sunday School. I was in my early 50s and our teacher was commenting on how quite elderly so and so had stated that getting old was very hard. Of course everything was great in my life up to that time. I had survive many serious blows that touched me that were totally out of my control while growing up. My life than was “Cherry” and So I happily injected, “Oh no, life gets better as you age!” My leader replied with with a smile, “Really, blah, blah blah” all on a positive note. I was so foolish, and spoke without thinkinking. I now reflect to what a long past newspaper columnist, Dr Donahue, once said, “Aging is not for the faint of heart.” All each one of us can do is our best, and keep in mind that not every situation can be dealt with the same positive solution. No one person can advice others on what worked for you will work for them. Just try not to give up. What I find helpful here is that as I read I come away with just that, “Don’t give up, get up again and keep trying.” Life changes and and what worked before many not work for the present situation one finds themselves in.” JUST KEEP TRYING till the day you cease to breathe. Jesus said life would not easy, but be encouraged because He overcame the world.

  26. Have you heard the saying: “Getting old is no picnic…but it’s better than the alternative!”

    I’m reading a book about widowhood by Betty Jane Wylie, which she wrote in 1977! It’s called Beginnings; she wrote it after her husband died suddenly at age 43. It’s a great book and offers a lot of support for women who are alone after an unexpected loss. I also love that it was written 40 years ago 🙂

    I included a few tips from Betty’s book in this blog post:

    Hope for a New Beginning When You Don’t Want to Be Alone

    How are you doing today?


  27. Face the reality.. While all this advice is well and good, you’re still old and alone..
    Your health is diminishing.. Activities you took for granted are a thing of the past on a physical level.. No one really wants to hang around old people very much.. It reminds them of their eminent demise somewhere in the near future.. Your kids are probably the your least best option to avoid loneliness..

    Ever wonder why you read about people, especially men in their mid 40’s committing suicide ? It’s because of the inevitable, getting old, dealing with failing everything from your health to erections.. You’re just old, and it ain’t going to get better.. That’s just the truth, as nasty as it is.. There is very little to rejoice about in getting old…

    1. Maybe there is a middle ground. Not all one way or the other. Maybe a compromise, for instance:

      Instead of all of our problems being solved in one fell swoop, maybe going to the store down the street for something nice to eat, even if it costs a dollar or two, could help. You get home, have enjoyed the fresh air, your attention was diverted, and you chose to smile, but maybe not interact, with a few people. You eat what you have bought; your trip was successful. You now have a different mindset, and maybe you sleep just a little better tonight.

      If you are a perfectionist, it can be difficult to accept seemingly small, insignificant victories; but it does help to do this.

      I have decided to settle. My life is not what I wanted, but I refuse to accept that it is wasted. People may not want to be with me, but I choose to value who I am, and I hope to come up with at least a few things that I can choose to do to make myself feel better.

      Sometimes, that is just a shower. In other words, I am lowering my expectations and trying to be content with who I am and what is available to me every day. God is in charge of when He brings me home. He too, will have to settle with who I am and what I have. That’s why He sent Jesus. I cannot fulfill all or any of His or my or anyone else’s expectations. Yes, that is depressing, but I think that it is time to give myself a break. I will try to accept myself for who I am, even when I look back and think that my whole life was a failure. Sometimes it takes effort to not buy into others’ lies about who I am; for the sensitive, this is hard to do. But why should we believe others when they separate themselves from us and decide not to be with us–maybe they are the problem, and there are probably many people who actually DO like us. It’s just that sometimes that is hard to see when the ones we want don’t want us or falsely accuse us of things that we did not do and thus legitimize their rejection of us (my story). It’s time to agree with what Jesus says about me–I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and I am accepted in the Beloved because of what He did on the cross for my sins. If others disagree with this, I will continue to believe my Savior about who I am.

    2. Chris, reality is where you choose to focus your attention. Reality is how each of us interpret the world. Do you have siblings? When I talk to my brother about anything that happened in our family when we were growing up, he remembers it completely differently than I do. It’s like we lived in different households. There is no reality! Our brains interpret the world a create a story so that we can function.

      But you really sound depressed. Is there a free clinic near you or do you have health insurance? You may need some talking therapy or a bit of medication. Your brain should be your helper in life, not your enemy. If your brain chemistry is causing depression, you can get help.

      And, Chris, try to take charge of your story! It sounds like you are lonely. There are so many older women who would love to have a caring, kind, fun man in their lives. (And don’t worry about sex. Can you kiss and cuddle? You’re good!) Put on your happiest face and dust off your goofiest story. Go to church or a political meeting or volunteer at a food bank. You’ll meet ladies who have time on their hands. Many will be widowed or divorced. Charm them by being friendly and upbeat. You don’t need to go to a fancy restaurant. Invite a nice woman for a walk and an ice cream cone. Women love it when men think up fun, offbeat dates. If you can afford it, go bowling. Go to a free concert in the park and pick up some McDonalds first.

      Having a job you hate colors the rest of your life. I have been there. It’s bad. If you can’t change that, you can improve the time you’re not at work.

      You are right. Life at 50 or 60 or 70 or … Is not the same as life at 25. I for one, am thrilled to pieces about that. I no longer suffer with the insecurities and self-consciousness, and the misery of try to figure out how to live. What I’m saying is that every age has advantages and disadvantages.

      Here is one thing I know for sure about you, Chris. If you continue to make lists of all the things that you have lost, of all the things that are wrong with your life, you will continue to be unhappy. That is a choice. Make a better choice, Chris.

      You are fit enough to get up and go to work every day. You get out of the house and interact with others. You live in a free country. You have choices. Go to the free library and get a free book to read. It’s a magic carpet just waiting to take you places. Start helping other people. It’s a great way to contribute to the world and make yourself feel good. Like animals? The shelters need people to walk dogs and play with them.

      We’re all rooting for you, honey. Grab your life back. Stamp your feet and say “This is NOT how my story ends!”

      1. Bravo, SAR! You have seriously enlightened me with your wisdom.

        As a teenager (after enduring years of abuse and with an attempted suicide), I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder. Thanks to years of 12-Step Groups, therapy and Effexor, my outlook on life made a turnaround. I have been on the same dose of Effexor for years and am now 60 years old.

        Unfortunately – a year ago and in the span of just 2 months – my beloved dog’s femur was shattered by an off-road vehicle, my wrist was shattered by a high fall, my mother passed away, and my estranged daughter tried to kill my disabled dog and ended up beating me. So, my condition turned to “Dysthymia” (chronic low-grade depression) even with Effexor maintenance.

        I have outlived two husbands. My daughter (who will be going to trial for attempted homicide of her husband) will not allow me any contact with my grandchildren, and I have no idea where any of them are. As the familial scapegoat, I’ve had to cut ties with the remaining few members of my family for the sake of my mental health. My home is a secluded cabin in the middle of the southwest desert. I love the spiritual safety and serenity of the wilderness. However, I am also losing the battle against loss and loneliness.

        Apparently, I have also been in denial about my possible relapse back into Major Depressive Disorder. Your words to Chris have sparked motivation for me to seek more professional help in town. I believe the current set of tragedies in my life may have altered the chemistry in my brain, causing a return of serious depression. (Suicide has crossed my mind over the past year, but my three beloved pets depend on me for their lives.)

        Anyway, your words to Chris had led me to seek some much-needed help!

        Thank you, Vivian . . .

        1. I wish you all the best, Vivian. You are taking control of your life and that can only bring improvement.

          I’m so sorry you have had such horrible things happen to you. I’m glad you have your pooch with you. Our dogs add so much to our lives. Don’t give up on people. Lots and lots of nice ones out there. Try to find a place in town to meet folks. Even volunteering to read to kids at the library or schools will get you out interacting with the world.

          1. Yes, I have two dogs (shelter rescues) and an old tom cat (abandoned by my daughter) – and they add a LOT to my life. They are constantly bringing me “moments of light” in a season of darkness. Their interactions with me and each other often make me smile and sometimes cause me to laugh (despite myself).

            I love the idea of reading to children at the library! Maybe, this will help to fill my need to be a functional grandmother?

            Also, I feel that your book, Growing Forward When You Can’t Go Back, will be an excellent addition to my counseling – and I will be preordering it, soon.

  28. Excellent advice, I was feeling very down today.

    You are 100% right about children not being insulation from loneliness. My girls both live within driving distance but they’re young adults with big beautiful lives of their own. I’m not lonely for just anyone. I’m lonely for them.

    1. Sometimes I feel lonely for what has been. Time passes, kids grow up and have spouses. It is time for us to find new or different people and focuses. Choose a cause and help out!

  29. I’ve lived in this small town for 8 yrs. I bought a little house here when I got my back disability and Social Security because the houses were cheaper here. Everyone here has grown up each other and has family here, or they too live here because it’s cheaper. A lot of them are into drugs and theft. I’m in Oklahoma. I have children in other states who are busy with their own lives. The church I go to is because they teach closest to Bible. But I’m just the nice little old lady who helps out, the one people like and seem happy to see, and then falls off the face of the earth when out of sight. I quit going to church functions. It’s no fun to sit there all by myself, even with the smiles I get and the occasional, “it’s always so good to see you”. I’m almost 70. I’m no longer anything I was, I don’t fit anywhere but on Facebook, where they don’t see my face so they don’t filter what I say thru my age. Don’t suggest senior citizen center… I’m interested in talking about the condition of the world, politics, prophesy unraveling right before our eyes…..there’s only so much I want to hear about aches and pains (I face enough of those myself), their grandchildren, and gossip. No one knows how lonely and useless I feel. Maybe this is a natural part of aging, so we’ll be more than ready when we know the Lord will soon take us Home.

  30. I too am alone. No kids or any other family. No money and scared to death. I’m a 56 yo female and facing homelessness.
    Not sure what I did to reap this.

    1. Karen, since I am only a year older than you and we have a similar situations I wanted to reach out to you.

      I also am alone and have had tragedy after tragedy every 6 months for the last 8 years. I went from a life where I had so many “friends” and a fiancé…A life so full that I had to turn off the devices to have some down time to almost becoming a recluse.

      Being hurt on the job and all my friends and family dying on a seemingly monthly basis has done a 180 on my life. You are not alone…Reading many of these responses here are mind boggling….and we are just the ones responding to this post.

      I did put an on CL about three years ago and actually found some decent people that I still talk too who are in the same situation as us. We actually check on each other to make sure the other is living….pathetic huh?

      We commiserate about life and one is much worse than I and she still plans on going cross county to Washington State to doe with her daughter and grandson.

      I too, have sat at times and say to myself What the hell happened?

      Reaching out thru cyber space and wishing you all the best…

    2. Karen, I have gone thru that. What got me thru is that I have so often experienced that getting right down to the wire, and seeing how the Lord opens up something unexpected. He will always take care of and provide for His people. I was looking for a building with a bush next to it, where I might be safe to sleep at night…..and got a call that changed my life. Our God WILL take care of you. And if you do end up on the streets (I’m doubting you will, but…) He will still take care of you and provide. Always!

  31. It was so relieving to read about others who share similar thoughts and fears of being alone and older. I have made my husband the center of my life. He suffered a stroke 8 yrs. ago so he and our home take all of my energy. I have 2 adult children from my first marriage but they have their own lives and unfortunately we are not close. Fortunately I love a good book, some TV shows, water aerobics and other activities that don’t bring me into close contact with others. I wish I could find a panacea for this type of lonliness but I am at a loss.

  32. Dear Hh,

    It sounds like you’ve been through a lot in your time here on earth! Lots of eye-opening experiences, lots ups and downs in your relationships.

    And yes, it can be difficult and scary to be alone when you’re reaching old age…or even if you’re middle-aged. We’re more vulnerable when we’re alone, especially when we don’t feel like we have friends. More importantly, it’s when we feel like we have nobody that understands us that we feel most alone. Connecting with people who get us is so important. It’s the wellspring of life.

    What helps me is Ecclesiastes, in the Bible. Everything is meaningless! said the Teacher. Nothing is new under the sun, it’s all for nothing. Good people and evil people both die, both suffer, both have heartaches and loss.

    I love Ecclesiastes because it shows me I’m not alone. The fears and suffering and loneliness are feelings human beings have felt since the beginning of time. It’s natural and normal to feel this existential angst, this loneliness and grief. God planted these seeds of “wanting something more” in us because He is the more! He created us, and we are at home when we are in His flow.

    To me, this means connecting with the Holy Spirit. I feel most alive in Christ – and most alive on this earth – when I turn my attention to God’s divine flow of love, peace, joy, and power. That’s how I cope with being alone in my old age – and in my illness, and in my 46th year here on earth. By allowing myself to join in with the angels who are constantly singing alleluia to Him.

    Blessings, peace, and passion!

  33. Thank you, Melinda, I really appreciate your kind words! I wish you peace and wisdom as you move forward in life, with lots of joy and love 🙂

  34. Wow. Im only 32 and I seem to have the wisdom of a much older person. People have called me crazy for thinking how i do. But you guys are saying things that i already know. I know that most friends are only fair weather and won’t be there in hard times. I know that most men are selfish dogs. I know that children may or may not be around later. The human condition is bleak. We are not lovey dovey wonderful beings. Especially not most men. My only hope is to save enough money to cover my expenses and hired help. Then when it comes time for nursing home i will end my life. I actually hope i die before any of this happens. I had my first car accident a few months ago and people said i was lucky to be alive. I beg to differ. Life is often difficult, harsh and lonely.

    1. Wow. I thought I was the only person that thought like you. I was getting surgery a few years ago and I thought before they put me under that I wouldn’t feel bad If I didn’t wake up.

  35. I am so grateful that I found this website. It is filled with hope. I just happened to start reading one of your articles yesterday, in which you wrote that you finally came to terms that your sister will no longer communicate with you. I am in the same situation with my brother, and it has been difficult for me to let go of the relationship. Reading your entry helped me to finally let go of my guilt, frustration, and anger. I feel at peace. I am a kind and loving person regardless of what my brother thinks (or doesn’t think) of me. Also, it was refreshing to read that you are childless and accepting that you are childless. Thank you for your entries.

  36. Thank you for being here, and sharing what it’s like to cope with being alone in your old age. I really appreciate your stories and perspectives – and I want you to know that your experience does make a difference to other readers. It helps us see we’re not alone, even if it feels like we are.

    I’m married, but my husband and I couldn’t have children. He’s a geologist who is away for 4 or 5 weeks at a time, working in the field (exploring for diamonds and gold in the northernmost parts of Canada!). I’m a full-time writer, so I spend almost all my time alone. I have 2 dogs, who really are my favorite type of company.

    But I do get lonely. I’m not old yet – I’m middle-aged – but I do understand the deep toll loneliness can take. I do find it much easier to have interests and passions. I love blogging! My Blossom blogs are my full-time job and purpose in life, and I also practice my flute every day and try to make time for painting (but I find my days full enough).

    Do you think that one way to cope with being alone in old age is to find something you’re passionate about? Something you love to do, that makes time melt away and engrosses you fully?

  37. I am a 64 yr old woman and I was always a busy active person but in the last few years my health has gone down hill. I have 4 Autoimmune Diseases and Parkinson’s. I had friends but as I got ill they faded away. The friends I had just didn’t know how to deal with my health problems and what to say or do to help me so they just left. Family is all gone and now I cannot get out like I use to to meet new people. I had to move to something cheaper so I bought a mobil home with cheap space rent in a senior park but I am the youngest here. Everyone I know now are in their 80’s and will be gone before long. My income is only $800 a month so I am stuck in the situation I am in. I play games online and talk to people on a Parkinson’s website and my dog keeps me company. I fall alot and my fear is I will fall and knowone will know and I will lay there alone until I can get up or die. I have made the decision that if I become unable to care for myself or start to get dementia I will end my life because I refuse to live my live in a bed not knowing who I am or not being able to do anything. Sometimes there is no answer to being alone.

  38. KJ you are lucky “as long as you stay healthy and alert.”‘ That seems rather flippant , based on others responses above.
    That would be a nice dream for all of that are NOT healthy. I’m not and so being alone is not an option – it’s just how it is when you get sick enough. And you can’t then make friends and find new Bobbie etc.
    I hope you always stay healthy and alert, truly. But recognize that many of us are not, and we are alone, and there simply isn’t much to do about it. I’ve researched it like mad and tried everything I could to stay busy and in contact with others. With my health, that’s just not Possivle.
    I wish you the best and ask only that you be more heads up in how you word things about your own great and satisfying life, on a blog where many are suffering terribly.

  39. I find that the blog entries are more interesting to me than the article. I am a male (59) and never married. I have not had a relationship in a long, long time and it does not look good for the future.

    I live and own a condo. I was able to purchase it because of my parents passed away and left me some money. I felt like the inheritance is equivalent to getting a long-term severance pay or pension. Because I spent many years working for them (and putting up with them).

    Just within the last few years, I feel like I don’t like living at my condo complex. I feel like I don’t fit in with the others there at all. I’m practically the only one who lives alone in the complex, so it seems like the others don’t have any room for me. Also there are many who seem very young, like the millennials; and they are so different. Very anti-social and immature.

    I have wanted to sell my place and move to a 55+ place. I would rather rent than own. If I stay where I am I will struggle financially, even when my mortgage is paid off. There’s so much repair and upkeep to do and I can’t afford it. And certainly, the people around me are not going to be better. They have become worse because so many owners had rented out.

    I have a friend who is 80 years old. He’s been married for over 50 years. He’s all against me moving He thinks that it would be a financial mistake. The rents at where I am are very high and that’s what’s stopping me. But I am miserable at where I live. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO THINK ABOUT MY FUTURE. And besides, who am I going to leave my place to?

  40. I am a female 70 years old. 9 years ago I moved from where I lived all my live leaving all family and friends behind. I suffer with RA and Fibromyalgia. I moved from a damp wet state into sunny south Nevada. I moved into a plus 55 resort and live in a small park model which I love. Easy to care for and a nice view of mountains, with a small yard. I have had several wonderful friends whom I met here but they have all either moved back near family or have passed away. I have been in a friendship with a 70 year old man for over 3 years and we have lived together for the past year. My story sounds so much better than others………….but. I am miserable and think often of ending it all. My male partner does not help with rent and he does not treat me well. I am afraid of ending the relationship due to being alone. I have no relationship with my 2 mile children, their choice. And they are 1200 miles away. They both have drinking problems and abuse women. There are days I hurt so bad I can hardly get around. Have no one who could help me with doctor appointments or shopping for groceries. I can not see myself asking my male partner to leave. He is not around much. I sit alone most of the time. I truly am so miserable I really wish it would all just end.

    1. I am in a very similar situation and my heart goes out to you, Caren. I feel very fragile going out of my apartment for fear I will fall and not be able to get up, I have two children, but they basically have abandoned me. I too wish that I just would not wake up in the morning. This article was useless to me. I do not know who would want to be with me in my apartment. There is no way to make friends when I can’t leave the house. I wish you well and hope your male friend treats you the way you should be treated.

  41. there is no answer, no humor, no purpose, no one cares. i thought i was having a heart attack the other night, and was actually excited i might die. medicare doesn’t cover any of my health issues. prescriptions are too expensive to purchase. Family is cruel. you don’t even want to hear this.

    1. How sad it is that so many of us reading this article feel abandoned and alone. I have meds that I cannot afford to fill and fell helpless also. Obamacare has not been kind to the elderly. No one cares about me either. I wish all of those of us posting could somehow support each other so we felt someone cared. Not all families are horrible. I guess I did something wrong while raising my children to make them so selfish and have no empathy for me now that I am old and need help.

  42. I really love doing many things alone and how to enjoy my world, so I don’t see it as a problem as long as I can stay healthy and alert.

    1. Yup, staying healthy…. that’s the kicker. I used to be healthy and I had a blast out in this world running around, kicking up my young heels!! I was a Head Start teacher. I remember the kids singing at our Christmas programs …. and every day was fun. I played flute in the church praise band, had a great group of good friends. Wow…. whose life was that? Certainly not mine, not this broken older woman struggling along, barely walking, with an exploded bowel, a colostomy bag, osteonecrosis in both hips, arthritis everywhere, herniated discs, and not a tooth in her head. When you’ve got your health, you’ve got *almost* everything. Most days are spent lonely and in pain and if I could, I would leave this world too.

  43. It really does suck for us Good men that never met the right woman which if we had been that Blessed from the very beginning which we could’ve been all settled down by now with our own Good wife and family that many of us still DON’T have today.

    1. I wish you had found the love of your life, but that would not have guaranteed you would have someone now. I was married for 42 years and my “good guy” kicked me out of the house. I have so many medical problems and have no one to help now. He got the house and turned my girls against me. Now I am old, alone, and poor.

  44. While this will not answer the problem of being alone, but there is the saying ” It is better to be
    alone than wishing to be alone”, and even worse – being alone together…

  45. This advice is so lame. The question was “How to live alone when you’re old,” not “How to live with a lot of friends when you’re old.” Here’s advice. Try to keep positive. Don’t give up. Netflix.

  46. Laurie Pawlik-Kienlen

    Dear Susan,

    I’m glad you’re here – it’s a pleasure to “meet” you! I know you’re not alone in wondering how to cope with being alone, and maybe feeling like you’re old. This article gets lots of traffic, but not many readers comment.

    When I was reading through your words, I thought that if I were you, I’d need to find purpose in my life. Me, I go to church because it draws me closer to God and gives me joy, peace, and strength. I love God – that’s my purpose in life. If you go to church just to meet people, you’re missing out on the true reason for church. Community is a secondary reason for going to church – an important one, for sure! – but meeting people has to come second to your faith and relationship with God. So maybe that’s why you didn’t form any lasting relationships at church, because you were there for the wrong reason.

    If I were you, I’d change my situation by finding meaningful, purposeful things to do in my life. That’s where you’ll connect with people who want to be with you! Volunteer somewhere, perhaps at a seniors home or with kids in your neighborhood. What are your interests? Find some way to volunteer in that capacity.

    I find it really difficult to make friends. The older I get, the harder it is. But I’ve learned that the more people I meet, the more likely I’ll meet someone I connect with. The trick is to keep meeting people who have the same interests as you, and you’ll find yourself not feeling so lonely.

    You might also consider joining a support group for moms of adult children with emotional or psychological health issues. It sounds like it’s a bit stressful to live with your son, especially since he got shot in the head. Find ways to cope with the stress – one of the best ways is to meet other parents in similar situations. Join a parenting support group, or a single moms’ support group.

    My prayer is that you find meaning in your life. May your life be filled with purposed, joy, and peace. May you make strong, fulfilling relationships in your life – and may you find yourself busier, happier, and more content than you ever thought possible!


  47. I am 62 I live with my son. He is 38 he is a good guy in a lot of ways. In many ways he makes my life more difficult. He has borderline personality disorder and was shot in the head a little over a year ago. His personality disorder and his head wound makes him violently angry very often. He is unable to work any longer I have applied for his disability, but right now he has no income. This makes me having a relationship of any kind almost impossible. I don’t know when he will explode. I have a beautiful daughter and granddaughters, they don’t come around any more. I have no relationship with them really. I feel so alone most of the time. I watch TV most of the time. I have never felt more alone. My son stays in his room most of the time with the door shut. I am afraid to try to talk to him often. I don’t know how to change my situation. I have tried going to church, people seem friendly, but they don’t care about you really. I tried going to the local bar and people seem friendly, but I can’t seem to form any kind of relationship. I was in a very abusive relationship with my husband for 14 years. I got remarried a couple of times, but I haven’t been able to recover from the abuse. I find it so hard to trust anyone. I spent most of my life caring for others. I took care of my mother who lived with me the last 5 years of her life. My daughter lived with me with her daughter, my son and his baby mama, her oldest daughter and my son’s daughter all lived with me. I started a daycare so I could be at home to care for everyone. I was so busy taking care of everyone that was my entire life. My son and his daughter both lived with me, now I really have no relationship with anyone not even my son and he lives here. I am lost any ideas?

  48. Dear Laura,

    Thank you for being here – I appreciate your honesty and willingness to share your life.

    It sounds like you’re coping with a lot right now – not “just” aging! There seems to be so many negative, disheartening influences in your life right now. And you’re young! I don’t think you look your age, because you have a 44 year old boyfriend 🙂

    I’m curious – what advice would you give the “younger” you? If you were to talk to yourself when you were 20 years younger, what would you say?

  49. I am terrified of being alone. I am 58, haave been told I don’t look my age, but have no way to gauge this, only that I look in the mirror and see this old woman and it scares me so bad I won’t look in teh mirror. I try to connect with the church, but there is no faith there. It’s all hogwash and petty politeness. I am severely hearing impaired, and I have visited churches with deaf ministies as I have been a teacher for the deaf and know fluent sign.No connections there and have to travel long distances in a car that could break down any minute. Catching the bus is an option, but I’ve really gottaa be committed to doing this. For some reason, hard to drag myself away from TV, leaving voicemails no one ever answers, dealing with with mental illness, brought on by years of being in traumatic abusive family.
    I am dating a 44 ywear old man, who is himself digging his way out of horrid financial dilemna. he can’t give me alot of time, because right now, his number one priority in life is to get himself on track, following a very traumatic series of explosions in his personal and financial life. I tend to rely on him, and put all my energy into dissecting the relationship because I live in a very negative place: a home for the elderly. I am disabled and the widows here are about twenty years older than me.
    For the fist time, I am experiencing constant pain.
    My daughter is a drug addict who is a felon. My sisters don’t want me. Never loved me, and have been violent towards me. I have so many issues that I can only stand in amazement that I wake up alive everyday, and for awhile there, writing a book that I made myself do until the pain hit two weeks aago. I’m going to a doctor, but that’s awful, health insurance for disabled pople is not good in this country and doctors can be so unkind. So, I love this guy, but he is focusing on himself and may not be there for me in the end, although he says he does.
    Getting back to the man I am dating,who says he loves me and put a little diamond on my finger that his grandfather ahd for many years and he found for me when I kept asking him for it—dear God! However,he has so many wonderful qualities. He is kind, honest and faithful. However, he is caught up in himself right now and self centered as a way of coping. If I let people do it, they tell me to get out of the relationship. I listen to all these opinions, instead of focusing that He doesn’t have enough time to spend with me and haas alot of time, left on this earth, compared to me. I have too much time, and not as much time left. So wee are at opposite poles. Breaking up with him is not going to do any good, cuz I am going to go right back to him in the end, and not going to solve the problem. I want to think he is going to be there for me and will undig himself and be with me one day. I tmay never happen, it may. i have no control over this.
    , I don’t know how to fill up the emptiness when he is not around. I need a support network. Where do I find people who like me? It amazes me that Doug loves me. Or says he does then I doubt it, and I really go around and around.
    Now, youhave it. Isn’t that ridiculous? this is my life. Dear God it sounds like a dull, bad, scary nightmare. Who wants to come near me? I am a boil getting ready to burst. Geez!

  50. Hi Sabrina,

    Thank you for taking the time to comment! I agree that a church family makes a huge difference to coping with being alone as we age. I’ve been part of a church for most of my life, and have loved all the families that have come and gone out of my life 🙂

    How do you know you won’t be living with a companion – or be married if you don’t believe in living with a partner before marriage – when you’re “older”?

    If you’re an active woman with a healthy social life, you won’t die in your apartment without anyone knowing. Build connections into your day, so if something did happen to you, someone would know.

    Although, come to think of it, I could spend a week alone and not miss human connection. I love being alone! Maybe I should be the one worried about dying and not being found for days…. 😉


  51. I really enjoyed this blog entry. It tells a lot of truths about aging and being alone. Sometimes I do get afraid of aging alone. Not so much due to lack of companionship but for more practical matters: what if I fall ill and no one is there to help me. My biggest fear is dying and no one finding me for days on end! Mind, I try not to dwell on that, but I’d be lying that I haven’t wept at the idea of ending up like that. I think of maybe moving into a roomate situation but then you never know what you get with that, and while my daughter and I do get alone, I don’t wish to be a burden to her as she does have a family of her own now. Fortunately, I do have a good church ‘family” that makes a lot of difference. At any rate, I’m happy to see someone out there adressing these very real issues regarding aging.