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How to Deal With Guilt After the Loss of Your Dog

Feeling guilty is normal after the loss of a dog. Here’s how to deal with guilt after putting your dog down or somehow causing your dog’s death. If you accidentally hurt your dog – or you put your dog to sleep and you regret it – you’ll feel terribly guilty. This is normal – but so painful! Here’s how to deal with guilt after causing your dog’s death.

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Dealing With Guilt When You Caused Your Dog’s Death

I’m sorry for your loss. It’s heartbreaking to say goodbye to a dog; the grief and pain seems like it’ll consume and overwhelm you. I know how terrible it feels, especially when you were somehow involved with your dog’s death. But you are not alone. Read through the comments section, and you will be comforted to see how many people are dealing with guilty feelings after their dog dies. Writing about your experience can bring healing, and will help you process the grief and guilt you feel after the death of your beloved dog.

In this article, you’ll find 18 ways to deal with guilty feelings after your dog dies. It’s not an “18 step process” – they are simply ideas to help you work through the guilt, grief, and pain you feel. The most important thing to remember is that you’re not alone! Read through the comments section below, and you’ll see that whatever part you played in your dog’s death was a tragic accident.


These tips for dealing with guilt after you caused your dog’s death are inspired by a reader who shared his guilty feelings about putting his dog to sleep. At the end of this article, I listed a few books on on coping with pet loss and dealing with guilty feelings about the loss of a dog.

Saying good-bye to your beloved dog is heartbreaking – and it’s even worse if you feel guilty about your dog’s death. Your heart and home will never be the same. I am sorry for your loss, and my heart is broken along with yours.

How to Deal With Guilt After the Loss of Your Dog

Some people accidentally kill their dog by accidentally leaving them in harm’s way. The most important thing to remember is that you did NOT purposely cause your pet’s death. When you are learning how to deal with guilty feelings after doing something that led to your dog dying, remember that you would have acted differently if you knew what was going to happen. 

If your actions led to your pet’s death, you have to keep reminding yourself that you did not deliberately harm your dog. It was an accident, and you would have done things differently if you had know what would happen.

Learn the difference between guilt and shame

A healthy step towards dealing with guilty feelings after your dog dies is to learn the difference between guilt and shame.

Guilt – if you have forgiven yourself – can be a positive feeling. It can actually encourage you to have more empathy for others. Guilt can help you make amends, take corrective action, and improve yourself. But you have to learn self-forgiveness before you can turn guilt around after the loss of a dog.

Self-forgiveness is essential to enjoying your life and relationships because you will always have something you need to forgive yourself for! Whether it’s not protecting your dog, forgetting something important, or accidentally saying something hurtful…we constantly need to forgive ourselves because we are human. We are constantly making mistakes, poor choices, selfish decisions.

And we cause accidents. Sometimes we accidentally hurt the dogs we love so much, and we feel guilty.

Know that guilt can make you a better person – more compassionate, kind, and tender-hearted

If you let it, guilt will become an unrelenting source of pain. You might believe that you should feel guilty and condemn yourself not once, but repeatedly. Guilt also may simmer in your unconscious. Either way, this kind of guilt is insidious and self-destructive and can destroy your life.

Shame is how you feel about yourself. Shame is hating who you are and feeling ashamed of what you did. Guilt is hating the decision you made, but accepting that you are human and you made a mistake or a poor choice.


Shame causes you to feel inferior, inadequate, or bad about who you are versus what you did. If you don’t learn how to deal with your guilty feelings and forgive yourself for not protecting your dog, your guilt will turn into shame. Shame is destructive, and has no positive effects.

When you feel guilty, you feel bad about something you did. Guilt can be empowering because it can motivate you to see others with compassion. Guilt – when it’s resolved – can make you a better, wiser, kinder, more loving person. Unresolved guilt and shame will lead to greater self-preoccupation, selfishness, and unhealthy relationships.

18 Ideas for forgiving yourself after the loss of your dog

In How Do You Forgive Yourself, Darlene Lancer shares 18 steps to forgiving yourself.  I revised and adapted her tips to fit our experience of dealing with guilty feelings after causing a dog’s death:

  1. Take responsibility for your actions. “Okay, I did this. My actions  led to my dog’s death, and I feel like dying because of the guilt, grief, and pain.”
  2. Write a story about what happened to your dog, including how you felt about yourself and others involved before, during, and after the loss of your dog. You can share your experience below, in the comments section. Read through the comments – you will see that you are not alone.
  3. Consider what your needs were at that time, and whether they were being met. If not, why not? This will help you see why you acted the way you did. For example, if you accidentally left your dog in a hot car you will see that you needed to do x, y, and z. That is what motivated you to forget your dog.
  4. What were your motives for the decision you made? What or who was the catalyst for your behavior?
  5. How were your feelings and mistakes handled when you were growing up? Were they forgiven, judged, or punished? Who was hard on you? Were you made to feel ashamed? It’s harder for us to forgive ourselves and deal with guilty feelings after a dog’s death when we haven’t learned forgiveness as children.
  6. Evaluate the standards by which you’re judging yourself. Are you struggling with guilt because of values that you haven’t chosen to adopt? Maybe you’re living by your parents’, your friends’, or your spouse’s values.
  7. How did your actions affect you and others? Whom did you hurt? Include yourself on the list. Acknowledge that you are in more pain than your dog is.
  8. Write your dog a letter.  Here’s something surprising but worth trying: write a letter of apology to your dead dog. Yes, I am serious! Clear 30 minutes in your schedule, sit down in a private spot where you can write and weep, and tell your dog what happened. This will help you process and deal with your guilty feelings about your dog’s death.
  9. Relive the experience, with the benefit of knowing what the future holds. Looking back, what healthier beliefs, thoughts, feelings, and actions would have prevented your dog’s death? It’s possible that you made the decision to put your dog to sleep. It’s also very possible that you would make that same decision today, even though you feel guilty about the loss of a dog.
  10. Have you struggled with perfectionism in the past? Has this improved your overall well-being? Perfection is illusory and a manifestation of underlying shame.
  11. Would you forgive someone else for doing what you did? Is it true that what you did was unforgivable?
  12. How does it benefit you to continue to punish yourself for accidentally causing your dog’s death?
  13. Write yourself an empathic letter of understanding, appreciation, and forgiveness. If you had a forgiving mom, compassionate teacher, or wise counselor, pretend you are her. Write from her perspective. Tell her how your dog died, and ask her to help you deal with guilty feelings surrounding the loss of your dog.
  14. Write a letter from your dog’s perspective. On second thought, this might be too painful. I don’t know. Consider it; if you think it may help you deal with guilty feelings about your dog’s death, then try it.
  15. Repeat on a daily basis words of kindness and forgiveness from one of your letters, such as, “I’m innocent,” “I forgive myself,” and “I love myself.” Remember that remorse is healthy and leads to corrective action. Think about what you’ve learned from your experience and how you might act differently today.
  16. Share honestly with others what you did – but don’t share with those who might judge you. You are welcome to write about what happened to your dog here, in the comments section. You will never be judged or shamed here, no matter how your dog died or what you did. Remember that secrecy prolongs guilt and shame.

It is entirely possible to forgive yourself and still believe you were at fault, just as you might forgive someone else even though you think the person was in the wrong. Learning how to deal with guilty feelings after the loss of a dog is about acceptance and growth, but not self-condemnation and shame.

You can have regret for what you did yet accept that you’re human and made mistakes. Perhaps, you did your best, given your circumstances, awareness, maturity, and experience at the time. This is a healthy, humble attitude.

Do you feel like it’s impossible to forgive yourself? It may be helpful to talk to a grief counselor. Consider seeing one who specializes in pet loss or animal therapy. And, remember the difference between guilt and shame. If you’re suffering from shame, you will be struggling with self-loathing, guilt, and feeling bad about yourself. This can be healed in therapy.

If you aren’t ready to work through your guilty feelings, read Words of Comfort When Your Heart is Broken.

Identify “inappropriate” guilt about the loss of your dog

Not recognizing that your Yorkie, Doberman, or terrier was ill doesn’t mean that you weren’t paying attention or taking good care of him or her! This is imagined guilt. Dogs can’t always communicate their physical health; pet owners can’t see inside their bodies and brains.

Another type of inappropriate guilt is if you’ve accidentally caused your dog’s death by letting him out, keeping him in, or losing track of his whereabouts. If you did not deliberately set out to harm your pet, then you have nothing to feel guilty about. I know this is easier said than done – and it takes effort to forgive yourself.

If you’re dealing with inappropriate guilt because of your dog’s death, remember that sometimes illness or disease overcomes our dogs and other beloved pets…and there’s nothing we can do. This loss of control is a very painful — but real — part of life.

Remember that it’s normal to feel guilty when your dog dies

Whether your guilt is real or imagined, know that it is a normal grief reaction. Even the most “innocent” pet owners feel guilt over a pet’s death. For instance, I now cringe when I recall how angry I was at my beloved cat, Zoey, for scratching the basement door (I didn’t realize the door to her litter box was shut tight, and she couldn’t get in). That was over 12 years ago, and I still feel guilty! Healing after you had to put your pet down often requires forgiving yourself.

Dealing With Guilt When You Caused Your Dog’s Death

Dealing With Guilt When You Caused Your Dog’s Death

Goodbye, Friend: Healing Wisdom for Anyone Who Has Ever Lost a Pet is the number one bestselling book on pet loss and grief on Amazon. I love the book because it offers both heartwarming stories and practical guidance on grieving the loss of a pet. It’ll help you deal with guilt when you caused your pet’s death.

Identify “appropriate” guilt about your dog’s death

Real guilt may spring from your feelings that you neglected your dog annual vaccinations, daily food intake, exercise habits, and “quality time” with you. If you’re struggling with real guilt, remember that you had reasons for doing what you did. The stress of money, work, kids, marriage, and daily life may have taken precedence over how you treated your beloved dog. Maybe you didn’t make the best choices.

Healing after the loss of a dog involves accepting that you wish you would’ve done things differently — and talking this through with your family, friends, or loved ones.

Remember what you did right — because you did a lot right

Your dog loved you unconditionally, beyond all reason – so you must have done something right. How did you love and take care of your pet? Balance your real guilt with the real ways you loved your pet dog. You took good care of your dog in many ways; don’t wave that away.

Dealing with guilt after the loss of a dog isn’t just about grieving; it’s about cherishing the best parts of your life with your dog. If you feel like you’ll never be happy again, read How to Recover From Loss and Survive Grief.

Do you feel like you caused your dog’s death? I encourage you to share your experience below. Talking and writing about it is healthier than ignoring it, and can help you process your grief. I can’t offer advice on what to do about accidentally causing your dog’s death, but it may help you to share what happened. Sometimes writing brings clarity and insight.

Forgive yourself after the loss of your dog

You may find How to Forgive Yourself for Not Protecting Your Dog helpful, especially if you feel like you’ll never experience the peace of self-forgiveness.

May you forgive yourself after your dog’s death. Know that your dog has forgiven you, and your dog knows it was an accident! You would never have hurt your dog if you knew what was going to happen. Your dog is free and happy now, and resting in peace. May God give you peace, heal your soul, and help you open your heart to love another dog.

“If there is a heaven, it’s certain our animals are to be there,” says Pam Brown. “Their lives become so interwoven with our own, it would take more than an archangel to detangle them.”

Pet Loss and Grief Help After the Loss of a Dog

how to heal after losing your petIf you’re struggling with grief and guilty feelings because of the circumstances surrounding your dog’s death, read How to Heal Your Heart After Losing a Pet: 75 Ways to Cope With Grief and Guilt When Your Dog or Cat Dies.

I interviewed veterinarians, grief counselors, and pet experts for the best ways to survive the death of a beloved dog, and I included stories from real pet owners who coped with guilt and grief in sometimes surprising ways.

In Going Home: Finding Peace When Pets Die, Jon Katz addresses the difficult but necessary topic of saying goodbye to a beloved pet. Accidentally killing your dog is an extremely painful experience, but you don’t have to go through it alone. Jon draws on personal experiences, stories from fellow pet owners, and philosophical reflections to help pet owners grieve the loss of their dogs. He gently asks readers to consider if they gave their dogs good lives and if they used their best judgment in the end. In dealing with these issues, you will deal with guilt about your dog’s death, and let go of the pain.

I welcome your thoughts on dealing with guilty feelings after the loss of a dog. I can’t offer advice our counselling, but you may find it helpful to share your experience. Writing is one of the best ways to process grief and guilt after your dog dies, and can help you resolve your feelings.

And, please do read through the comments below. You’ll see that you’re not alone. No matter what caused a dog’s death, we always feel guilty after. We always feel like we could have and should have done more. But we need to accept our loss, and let our dogs to rest in peace.


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359 thoughts on “How to Deal With Guilt After the Loss of Your Dog”

  1. Sick inside and hollow with no hope or care for a future is real and how my world is. My first and only. My best and perfect (almost). My entire world every day. My dog is gone. Not paying attention, rushing and like recently, being an airhead, I pulled out of driveway and rolled over my sweet little boy. He was almost 14 and doing good despite all the ailments he had going on. Like a true professional, he was excited to go to work with me like every other day, except this day i totally failed him. Worse yet my two young kids were in the car and witnessed the whole thing. It’s been 5 days and the kids seem to be off a bit but are getting by. Wife is sad but has lost her dad at 15 – needless to say she’s tough. I’m different. I’m not well and yet don’t seem to care. As in f-it, IF anything were to happen to me THEN good. I can be with my boy at the rainbow bridge. Problem is I have responsibilities here and have to hang in there albeit soulless and existing in a void of misery without energy or passion for anything. What now. Be a useless dad and terrible husband to my time is up. For those that share here, thank you. What little hart I have left is also breaking for you. All I read is time, time and give it more time. It won’t be forgotten but it may dull a little. Why would this happen to a dad? Why if I adored his so. How is this remotely fair. A-holes who tie their animals up outside with little provisions get to go thru life without this pain. Why. Why do A-holes who trash a bag of puppies on the highway Get off scottfree. FN why. I loved him more than words. I loved him and still do and always. He was my everything. Everything. Damit.

  2. My most precious, loyal and sweet-hearted Border Collie of 15 years died one week ago. Her health has not been the best – eyesight deteriorating to probably 90% blind over the past 2 years and hearing 85% at best over the same time period. But this genius love of my life adapted – miraculous the way animals can find a way. She was still eating, drinking and going outside to go potty just like she did 10 years ago – could find her way back to the front door and around the house even though she could not see a thing in front of her unless it was 3-4 inches from her face – such a brilliant sweet girl! I was ready to pull my steak off the grill when I heard the piercing shrieks and agonizing yelps of a dog in the forest behind my house – a dog whose situation was clearly dire and in tremendous pain. I ran to the treeline, pacing up and down it calling for the dog and lightly clapping and whistling using a soothing tone, hoping it would move a little so I could go in and get him. And nothing. So I returned to the grill, took dinner inside and was grappling with whether I should go back out – knowing whomever the dog belonged to would probably be sick with worry. Earlier, Dolly, my beautiful Border Collie had been so excited that we were “having steak” for dinner – but lately it wasn’t unusual for her to put herself to bed early, so I went to remind her that their was beef in her future and she wasn’t in any of her 3 dog beds. And then the most horrific thought crossed my mind… and as I connected the dots my stomach tied into a knot and my mind raced, I prayed out loud with gutterall moans that it wasn’t true. I looked over the edge of the deck and there she lay – she had fallen 15 feet to the ground below – no railing to protect her as our deck is “under renovation”. I have yelled at my husband on countless occasions about making sure she doesn’t slip out when he isn’t paying attention, so there is NO EXCUSE for me. I rushed her to the only emergency vet open at 9:30pm – a 25 agonizing mile drive and her injuries were such that I had to put her down. When I said goodbye, I know that was the right decision but how could I have let this happen?!!!! I cannot stop running the sound and the sight of this nightmare over and over again in my mind. I don’t know how I will ever be able to go on with this haunting ache – the weight of this guilt for neglecting the most important thing in the world to me and letting fall to what would ultimately be her death. I am lost, devastated and heartbroken without my girl.

  3. Last week my family and I lost our puppy Atlas. He was only 11 weeks old and we had only had him about three weeks. He was so adorable and had the most beautiful little smile and personality. He was killed in a horrible accident in my parents home where he was meant to be safe. My father had come into the house from the grocery store and accidently not seen him and stepped/tripped on him as he walked in as Atlas ran to him. My mother ran over to my apartment with Atlas who was limp screaming the puppy is dead. I took him in my arms and tried to give him cpr and my boyfriend and I rushed him to the vets only minutes away. They spend a half hour on him but he was gone. I cannot get the image I have of him while trying my hardest to save his little precious life. At one moment I thought maybe he would survive and I said its ok baby you will be ok but it was not ok. I wish there was more I could have done. I think now how I should have gotten my parents a collar with a bell maybe that would have changed the situation and he would be here. I am haunted by this. He was only a baby and had so much more to see in life which makes it the hardest to accept. He never got to see the beach or go on the boat. I miss seeing his face and watching him grow an learn new things. He was taken to soon and it is not right. I have found it hard to face my father even though I know he must feel terrible and it was a horrible accident.

  4. Okay so here it goes. Its been 3 weeks and it was as if it happened yesterday and the guilt is as strong as ever. 3 weeks ago i came home to the side of my house where the dogs didn’t see me. I questioned entering in the door where they could smell me and leaving them alone and instead picking up my partner but I said no its not right. So I went and saw them. Cookie which was our 15 year old bichon was taking kidney food and high blood pressure medicine at the time. It improved her health to the point it was like night and day. I could tell she was ready to eat . So I thought it would be smart to let the other 2 (princess her daughter and Chewy her adopted son) out first while I feed her the medicated food and blood pressure medicine. Once she was done she was soo happy and cheerful in that moment. A couple of weeks prior I told my partner to get her checked out by the vet as I noticed that her spunk was gone and she seemed , old acting but sick(its hard to explain unless U know your pet). Like I suspected they confirmed that she did have a health issue. We were told of her kidney condition which was repairable and high blood pressure. After she was taking the medicine and kidney food for over 3 to 4 weeks it was clear that she was doing very well. Like she was a young dog. Energetic, smiling, and happy that she ate her food. So when I brought back in Chewy and Princess they both ran back inside to see if cookie left anything for them. She went out to go potty. I followed them to see what they were going to do and I believe I was going to get them a treat. I would say less than maybe 30 to for 50 seconds later i went to check on cookie as usually she would be barking to come back inside I noticed that she was floating in the pool. Not realizing that due to it being night that she would follow them out to the potty area I realized that I made a big mistake. Like others I tried to bring her back and I allowed them to be right there with me for energy and support. They witness me calling her, pushing on her tummy and doing mouth to mouth and she did one gulp and looking back I believe she died in that moment. I was in such shock I went to see my partner hysterically crying as this was his Moms favorite dog before she passed in 2007. At the time not realizing that she may have been gone I needed my partner to be the last person she see’s. I thought I felt her heart beating when I was driving to get to him. He received my message and was pissed. He was devastated at me and hated me. i couldn’t blame him. We got her to the emergency vet and they gave us the confirmation that she had passed. We were there for an hour and we went home without her. I was in such shock, couldn’t sleep for days, and felt bad because this was my partners Moms dog. Yes, i loved her too but I felt more guilt because she died on my watch. This dog slept with him every night and was very loyal. It was clear that she loved us both but was very attached to him more for very clear reasons. What makes me feel disgusted at myself is that I even preached to him about this very scenario which she has fell into the pool before but we got her out in a flash. But I couldn’t save her. I think about it everyday. I dont let my other 2 out of my sight when he or I take them out to potty. He has forgiven me but I cant forgive myself. I wish she could give him a message to say that she loved him and would say goodbye to him in the way that he would understand. I feel like I dont deserve her forgiveness. I feel like I let him and his beloved mother down as this dog had a lot of life in her. I think about how she must of felt when she fell into the water and was like WTF where is Greg and I didn’t come in time. Then she thinks of my partner and says that she will missed him and suffers till she drowns to death. That is something that I cant ever forgive myself for allowing to happened. To know she suffered in this way and I wasn’t there pains me to my core. I will be seeing someone this week about being able to deal with what happened but as you can see its soo hard. Thank you for hearing my ordeal and I will pray that i can deal with what I feel like I caused/did to her. P/S my partner forgives me and doesn’t blame me for her passing. But I would give anything for a message from the spirit world to know that she knows that i didn’t mean for this to happened and that she would say goodbye to my partner in the way he would know ..My mom did that for me when she died. Thank you for reading.

  5. I had to have my beautiful friend Scooby Doo put down. He had survived phneumonia and as a result developed chronic bronchitis . But still he went on for four more years. He still loved to go for a walk all be it a few hundred yards right to the day I had him put down,
    . That was the most terrible day. He walked back , but was strained and out of breath. He went up stairs unassisted, but then the pain showed. He could not lie down. He came down, but it was clear he was in extreme distress. I called the vet to come to my house. He could not stay still so I let him into the front garden. His back legs kept giving way.
    The vet came and he instantly barked to protect me. It was arthritis she diagnosed. His heart and stomach were ok. She advised to put him down. I said no, give him painkillers and an anti arthritis injection. He slept all day. When he woke it started again. He would not eat his favourite treats, friends came to visit him. Everyone new this was not good, I called the vet back. She told me if I loved him it was time to end his life. I could not make any sense of this. He had survived so much in the past and I new his pain threshold was not good, I thought he could make it through.
    Eventually I agreed on the basis he was given anesthetic first, following the injection he got up and walked accross the room. I told the vet, I said he was strong enough to cope. She and my wife argued with me. He was given a second anesthetic and collapsed. I knew it was the end. The vet injected him and I felt his heart stop.
    I cannot forgive myself for being weak. I should have fought for him.
    He was 15 years 6 months old , a rescue dog who had been with me for 10 years. We had been through everything together and I miss him so much I am still crying. He died June 6th , D Day and is buried in my front garden. God Bess Scooby Doo forever in my heart, beautiful inside and outside, The Snuffle Dog, The naughtiest dog in Totland Bay, the greatest swimmer who could smell Fish and Chips 1/2 a mile away.

  6. My sweet, old bulldog, Matlida, died last Tuesday. She was an almost 10-year-old rescue and we’d had her two years. She was incredibly shy and didn’t bark to go in or outside. As a result, we always let both our bulldogs out at the same time so that the other one could bark to let them both back in. And, more often than not, we waited at the front door for them to be done or sat outside with them. Not as an excuse – but I guess an explanation… this is what happened. It was the second day of summer vacation for the kids and my routine was all messed up I guess. I usually try to let the dogs out every 2 hours or so because Matilda will have an accident if I don’t. Both my kids were home – and one of them had a friend over. So there was a bit of chaos of everyone being bored and wanting activities. I let Matlida out to go potty and went to go wake the other dog from her nap to let her out too… but the phone rang, the kids needed a snack, there was talk about heading to a pool later… About 45 minutes later I looked at the clock and decided to let the dogs out and realized I’d never let Matlida back in. It was about 75 degrees, slight breeze, plenty of shade so I wasn’t actually worried about her – just more worried that she might have wandered off. She was not sitting right outside in “her spot” and there was some throw up nearby. That concerned me – bc it was full pieces of food and she hadn’t eaten for about 5 hours at that point. I ran around the yard and found her laying in the backyard. She must have just died. I was in total shock – and I can only guess that she overheated. I tried to resuscitate her with the kids screaming around me… Then I carried her inside and kept trying. Mouth to nose, pushing on her chest, spanking her bottom, and rubbing her with wet towels, crying and yelling for her to not go. I didn’t know what to do.I raced her to the vet even though I knew it was too late… And I came running in sobbing and they just looked at me like I was the most horrible person. I still can’t believe I forgot her. My family is trying to be sweet about it. A younger healthier dog would probably have been fine. A different breed could have spent the day outside. Maybe she had other issues… but realistically, to me it doesn’t matter. Even if she ate something that caused her death – it only happened bc I forgot her outside. I’m heartbroken and feel so awful.

  7. Susan, you spared her. Fear and struggling to breathe right, a horrible thing. My son’s little Maltese, Daisy, was on medication for a bad heart but it got to the point, like yours did, and no medication, no matter how much longer you give it, will fix things. After sleeping with Daisy for three nights and giving her meds and trying his best, he said that’s enough. They went and put her to sleep. She was an old girl and he and his wife had treated her like a baby all the years they had her, just like you did, I am sure. i don’t think you should doubt your decision just because the vet didn’t say it first. He would have, trust me. You did the right thing for your dog.

  8. I am totally racked with guilt. My 8 yr old rescue Kauluah was like a daughter I never had. I was her mama . She followed me into every room. I said “ let’s go for a ride “ and she got excited as usual and headed for a 3 hr trip to visit my brother. “ I started getting sleepy and pulled off to take short nap. The cops tapped on my window and an ambulance was already there. “ I told them I was just sleepy” I let them search my purse and offered a breathalyzer but told me to go to ER. I was oriented and everything: I asked the ambulance girl and cops what about my dog. They said they would keep her. After being cleared in ER my brother came and picked me up. We went yelling for her- she was dead in the highway. I feel so guilty. I always tell her “ I’ll be right back but there were scratch marks on my car of her panicking to find me and eventually crossed the highway and got hit- I was suicidal and kinda : I have to go to treatment now. I thought the cops would keep her safe:

  9. Yesterday morning I was letting my little Yorky she was 13 years old outside to go potty at the same time we had my mother-in-law‘s little Chihuahua and I was holding the Chihuahua but I wasn’t holding my Zoe my husband got in his truck and he was backing out and we thought for sure Zoe was getting out-of-the-way but she didn’t and I watched him run her over and I couldn’t get to him and I was begging him to stop but he couldn’t see me and he ran over her and she died in my arms just like five minutes later and it’s all my fault

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