How to Live Without Your Dog 88


If you think you can’t live without your dog, you’re not alone. These tips for surviving your dog’s death are inspired by a question from a reader.

how to live without your dogGoodbye, Friend: Healing Wisdom for Anyone Who Has Ever Lost a Pet by Gary Kowalski is an excellent resource for coping with the death of a dog.

Here the comment that inspired this article on living without your dog: “I have no family, I’m divorced, no friends, am very depressed, and my dog is the only friend I know,” says Jeff on my article about putting your dog to sleep? “She needs to go to heaven but what about me after this is over? Who can be with me to do this, are there any organizations to help? I don’t think have the courage to do this alone and I fear for myself when it’s over.”





And here are a few practical tips for surviving your dog’s death…

Living Without Your Dog

“Time always brings eventual relief from the pain and your life will return to normal,” writes Gary Kurz in Cold Noses At The Pearly Gates (a book that offers many spiritual ways to survive pet loss). “There will be a time when you feel guilty for feeling better, but event hat will pass. Nothing will ever take away the sense of absence, but the disabling and relentless grief will subside and eventually disappear. I know it may not seem that way now, but…it has proven true every time.” Time helps. It may not be the best consolation, but it’s true.

For the first few weeks, avoid visible reminders of your dog

Though it helps some people to keep their dog’s collar and tags, it may be too sad for you. People mourn, recover, and remember in different ways. Here’s what pet bereavement counselor Wallace Sife writes in The Loss of a Pet: “Get rid of your pet’s toys and other things…they are mostly painful, and not good for you at this time. If you can’t throw them out yet, put them out of sight in a drawer or a box in a closet or basement. The real memory is in your heart.”

Seeing your pet’s collars, leashes, dishes, and beds in their usual places may make it harder to heal. Maybe one day you’ll donate them to friends or an animal shelter, or use them for a new pet. But for now, it may be best to put them out of sight.

If you feel bitter or angry at the vet, read How to Deal With Anger at the Veterinarian.

Find other creatures to care for

Do you live alone and feel like you have no friends, family, or neighbors to lean on? Think about getting another pet.

“My responses to each of my pet’s deaths differed in duration and intensity, depending on how quickly the end came, how much we suffered during their decline, and how many other pets I had,” says Sid Korpi, author of Good Grief: Finding Peace After Pet Loss. “The silence of the house when our dog Ludwig died was deafening because we had no other dogs at the time. It was tougher than when Mortimer left us, because we had our two Westie girls, Blanche and Keely. I didn’t love or miss Mortimer less intensely, but I was forced to pull myself out of my pain when the girls needed me. They reminded me life has to go on whether we’d like to wallow in the past or not. I’d feed them with tears rolling down my cheeks.”







If you get another dog, remember that they’ll never be the same as the one you lost. You’ll need to balance mourning the death of your dog with embracing a new, different dog.

Give yourself a sense of purpose – a reason to live

How to Live Without Your Dog

How to Live Without Your Dog

Maybe you don’t have other animals to take care of, and maybe you don’t want to take care of anyone else. That’s fine, but remember that being needed is something all humans need. “One of the basic human satisfactions is the feeling of being needed, and attending to an animal gives many people a daily sense of being useful,” writes Gary Kowalski in Goodbye, Friend: Healing Wisdom for Anyone Who Has Ever Lost a Pet. “It is important to know you make a difference, at least to one appreciative creature. For some people, losing a pet can mean losing a sense of purpose.”

Have you lost your sense of purpose? Find ways to make your life meaningful. Ask your friends and family what makes their lives worthwhile and interesting, and try something new every week.

Strive for a healthy, balanced life

Do you think your life is meaningless without your dog? If you have absolutely nothing else to live for except for your dog, then you may need to seek help. It’s not healthy to get all your life, love, and meaning from a your pet. I love my dog with all my heart, but I also love my work, my husband, and my writing.

Help Living Without Your Dog

how to heal after losing your petIn How to Heal Your Heart After Losing a Pet: 75 Ways to Cope With Grief and Guilt When Your Dog or Cat Dies, I share the most valuable, comforting advice I found when I was dealing with the loss of my own dog, Jazz.
I interviewed veterinarians, grief counselors, and pet experts for the best ways to survive the death of a beloved dog, and I included stories from real pet owners who coped with guilt and grief in sometimes surprising ways.

To be truly healthy and happy, you need to be balanced. And that means finding happiness in several different parts of your life, not just from your dog.

May you find ways to live without your dog, and may you find courage and strength to believe that your heart will heal. You may even heal enough to open your heart and soul to love another dog one day.

“If there is a heaven, it’s certain our animals are to be there,” says Pam Brown. “Their lives become so interwoven with our own, it would take more than an archangel to detangle them.”




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88 thoughts on “How to Live Without Your Dog

  • Lisa

    I would love to reply to everyone individually but for obvious reasons… I won’t. To each of you who are grieving as I am without my Hazel, I just wanted to thank you for sharing your stories. They give me strength and I realize that I am not alone. It’s been 4 weeks for me and although it is awful and I cry every day, each day feels a little better for me. I know that this is my “new normal”. Don’t get me wrong, I still talk to her constantly and make deals with her asking if I could just see and feel her again but it does get a little easier. I started a diary so every day I write a little something to her. This makes me feel better. I hope each and every one of you find a way to cope with your loss.

  • tom halliday

    Had my beautiful staffie cross put to sleep a month ago, jenga a recue dog, was so loving with everyone, she net, everyone lived her, then one day she slipped out my back garden behind me and pinned down a passing collie on a lead with her owner, i was shocked to the core, when the dust had settled, and after talking to an expert, he reckoned it was probably a one off as the dog had, threatened jenga one morning as i was walking her, and this was a bit of payback, i had hardly slept with worry incase she did it again, and then she did as another dog was walking by with its owner, when she jumped y front garden fence and did the same, u had her put to sleep, i was in shock and have struggled to sleep since, with guilt, my friends were so shocked with what she had done, she actually played with the black lab next door, hardly a day goes by when i have not shed a tear, i know i spoiled her so much, i really treated her like a child, she was only 2 , after a year with no problems, she did what she did, and im sure she would have did it again, i miss her so much

    • Lisa

      Tom, don’t worry, read the passage below and know that it is true. I won’t write all 9 things that your dog wants you to know (see my reply to Scottie further down). 9 Things Your Deceased Pet Wants You to Know
      1. There’s nothing that could have been done differently
      A Soul’s path is planned before they are born onto this Earth. This plan includes all possible exits from this world. And when the Soul leaves this Earth, know that this exit was part of their Soul’s plan and a specific choice made by their soul.
      There’s nothing you, or anyone, could have done differently to save them. The time at which your Pet’s Spirit leaves this world is no one’s doing, it’s no one’s fault.
      When it’s the Soul’s time to exit their physical body, everything that can be done, has already been done. Everything that needed to happen, did. Your pet wants you to know that there’s absolutely nothing you could have done differently, you did everything exactly right.
      2. They chose you as their parent(s)
      Just as the Soul chooses exit paths and plans for their life, your pet also selected you as their parent.
      Your dog, your cat, your bird – chose you, as the one who would make them feel the most loved and bring them the most comfort and joy while they were here. And you did.
      Your pet wants you know that you were and are the perfect parent.
      3. They understand your sadness, but would rather see you happy
      As a Spirit now, your pet knows that sadness is part of the grieving process, but they wished it wasn’t.
      Remember how, when they were alive, they would snuggle up next to you, sitting by your side (or on top of you), whenever you were feeling sad or feeling bad? They wanted to make you feel better *just like you thought* and they wished they could do something to make you happy, then. And they still do, even now, They don’t want their exit to have brought pain, in fact, no one does. But they understand that this is part of the process.

    • Lisa

      Tom, I know you feel terrible, but just know that (repeating what I wrote further down) There’s nothing that could have been done differently. A Soul’s path is planned before they are born onto this Earth. This plan includes all possible exits from this world. And when the Soul leaves this Earth, know that this exit was part of their Soul’s plan and a specific choice made by their soul.
      There’s nothing you, or anyone, could have done differently to save them. The time at which your Pet’s Spirit leaves this world is no one’s doing, it’s no one’s fault.
      When it’s the Soul’s time to exit their physical body, everything that can be done, has already been done. Everything that needed to happen, did. Your pet wants you to know that there’s absolutely nothing you could have done differently, you did everything exactly right.
      2. They chose you as their parent(s)
      Just as the Soul chooses exit paths and plans for their life, your pet also selected you as their parent.
      Your dog, your cat, your bird – chose you, as the one who would make them feel the most loved and bring them the most comfort and joy while they were here. And you did.
      Your pet wants you know that you were and are the perfect parent.
      3. They understand your sadness, but would rather see you happy
      As a Spirit now, your pet knows that sadness is part of the grieving process, but they wished it wasn’t.
      Remember how, when they were alive, they would snuggle up next to you, sitting by your side (or on top of you), whenever you were feeling sad or feeling bad? They wanted to make you feel better *just like you thought* and they wished they could do something to make you happy, then. And they still do, even now, They don’t want their exit to have brought pain, in fact, no one does. But they understand that this is part of the process.

      • Tam Murphy

        What beautiful words Lisa. Thank you!
        I still pine for my beautiful baby girl Holli the cocker…I cry nearly everyday and it’s been three months. Reading your post was very calming, so I just want to say thank you again….even if it was addressed to Tom, it was lovely to read.

  • Lisa

    My sweet beloved Hazed left us on Monday, May 8, 2017 and I feel like I can’t live without her and I’m wondering why I didn’t spend her last day with her instead of going to work. On Saturday, I was outside doing yard work and she was in the house barking non stop for 3 hours. We couldn’t let her out because we were power washing our deck. that night she was lethargic and I just thought that she over did it. but the next day she couldn’t walk so my son and I carried her up to bed and when she wasn’t better on Monday I made the vet appointment in hopes that she just needed an antibiotic.. but the vet said her back legs were paralyzed. I still wanted to take her home with medicine but my 2 sons were there and they said she wouldn’t get better so we put her down. I can’t eat or sleep. Hazel was diagnosed on May 5, 2016 with a tumor on her spleen and the vet gave her only a couple of months to live. She suggested I give her a Chinese Herb called Yunnan Baiyao and I gave it to her daily and my sweet girl lived for another year. She loved my cooking and I used to joke that she probably thought I was cooking for her every night since I would always give her a “special treat” which was what ever we had for dinner. She was with us for 12 beautiful years and was there for the good and bad times but the one thing that is so hard for me is that she was ALWAYS there and now she’s not here. The house feels horribly quiet. The last few months of Hazel’s life, we had to lay wewe pads down all over the house because she couldn’t always make it to the door… but that was okay. Now my house is too clean.. and quiet. I hurt so much that it feels like I can’t go on. I know she is here with me in spirit but the selfish part of me wants to hear, smell and feel my pretty girl. Hazel was a 75 pound red nose pit bull and she was jus the sweetest devoted dog I know. I LOVE YOU HAZELxoxo

  • christine nightingale

    My beautiful Labrador Lucy was in my life for just over 11 years. I fell in love with her when she was a little plump puppy and I loved and cherished her until I had to make the hardest but kindest decision to let her go as she had been diagnosed with liver cancer 2 weeks earlier. My life revolved around her and even when I had to work she was often fleeting into my thoughts throughout the day. From the moment I had to say goodbye to her on the 1st April 2017 she has been in my thoughts from the moment I wake up to the moment I fall asleep at night. I have cried a river and I have had a day when I thought I just want to close my eyes and not wake up and then I will be with her. My partner says “we live, we die” If only it was that easy for me to deal with losing her. I tell myself she had a good, loving home and had a great life but it dont make me feel better. My father used to be cruel to the dogs we had as he was to us and so when I took Lucy I told myself she was always going to be loved and she was. I absolutely loved her, she was such an easy dog to love as she had a sweet nature and loved everything and everyone and was never ever aggressive even when a dog bit her. She was the sweetest dog and I was very very lucky to have her in my life. I feel empty and very very sad that she has gone and is no more. I have a job I really enjoy and that keeps me busy. I have a partner who I have been with for 18 years and I have some good friends but not one of them can help me. I just want everyone to leave me alone! I have been told by so many dog owners the past few weeks “go and get yourself another dog” Why would I want to do that? They are not Lucy and I only want Lucy and another dog wont make me feel better or take away the ache i have in my heart. Yeah, her death has broken my heart. I have lost my mum, brother and 3 close friends and lots of colleagues through the years and I lost 2 beloved cats, even my budgies so I am no stranger to death. I think with Lucy its unconditional love, she loved me no matter and I just loved her. Is there something wrong with me? Am I lacking something in my life? Why cant it just be that I adored my dog and I miss her

    • Kimberly E. Wilgus

      December 21, 2016 was the day Max went to heaven. In my home. Laps of Love.He was surrounded by his toys, his leash, sweater and all his special items that were a part of his life. I prayed with him and was with him until the final breath. His ashes are with me, his locks of hair and his pawprint. My heart aches every day and I just got a good cry out of my system. I miss him and love him so very much. Max passed exactly one month before his 15th birthday. when will the hurt end? Just dont seem to care about much. Go through the daily grind with emptiness. MOMMY LOVES YOU MAX😇😚🐾🐾💖

      • Tam Murphy

        Kimberly, unfortunately the hurt doesn’t end but I can tell you that it does get easier. It’s been nearly 9 weeks since my beautiful cocker girl Holli Jayne passed and today I still shed tears. But it’s easier than the first week she left us. I thought I was going to pass on myself as I was so distraught and just wanted to be with her. But it gets easier with time.

    • A

      There is nothing wrong with You I lost my baby girl keditha on may 12 she loved me I loved her she was so sweet I have lost family and it has not hurt as bad as this I had her for 10 years 8 month to short I could not save her ruptured tumor I her spleen I stayed with her at home in the yard as told her was ok to w
      Go to sleep and she did she was gone two minutes later I miss her so very much like u I don’t want to replace her love I want her back and it hurts

  • Scotty

    You know you are in trouble when you type ‘my dog died and I don’t want to live anymore’ into a search engine. But it looks like I’m not alone in feeling this way.
    My 14 year old beautiful girl, Tajee, had recently been diagnosed with geriatric vestibular disease, which is not life threatening but can give you a scare. I nursed her back to health over a couple of weeks and she was almost back to normal with the exception of not being very well balanced in the dark. At this time I had had a short holiday booked for months with a good friend to go to walk a track in New Zealand and I felt that Taj was going to be O:K as my partner was staying home and would be able to look after her. The only thing I stressed to my partner about was not to let Taj out in the dark by herself as she could get into trouble.
    Two days after I left I spoke to my partner and Taj had disappeared. Of course this stressed me out but I felt that she would turn up.
    That night I dreamt that Taj came to me feeling very sad and she led me past burial mounds and down to a swiftly flowing river into which she disappeared into and was swept away and there was nothing I could do.
    Just a dream right ?
    A couple of days later I found out that Taj had drowned in the pond in our front yard after my partner had let her go outside by herself in the dark.
    I feel like my soul has been ripped apart and that I failed the light of my life when she needed me the most. I can’t work, sleep or focus on anything and I just want to end my life so I can be with her.
    This is coupled with a growing hatred of my partner for not listening when I warned her about Taj not being very good in the dark and that she should not be left by herself if she needed a nightime wee. I don’t want to blame my partner as she has to deal with this as well, but everytime I look at her it reminds me that it is because of her that my best friend, my soul dog, died a tragic and preventable death.
    I also can’t stop with the personal recriminations and ‘what if’ questioning.
    I have lost family and friends in the past but the grief and pain was never as intense and overwhelming as what I am feeling about losing my sweet girl right now.
    At this point in time, a week after her death, I am really having a hard time finding a way to get through this and the emptiness in my heart and in my home is deafening.
    This is the first time I have ever left a comment on any site but I thought sharing my experience might help with the grieving process.
    Time will tell I suppose.
    I hope my girl is running in the afterlife sunshine and I yearn for the day when I can run with her again.
    Love you always little dog 💙

    • Tam Murphy

      Ooooh Scotty, I know the feeling all so well and it’s the worst feeling that you probably will experience in your life. They are our fur children and we don’t get to love them for long enough. You think that you have years ahead when they are puppies but that time goes by too quickly and before we know it, they’re gone. My girl was just 10 when she passed away on the 8th March after contracting pneumonia after receiving 10 doses of chemo to treat lymphoma. I still have days when I can’t believe she has gone. It hits me that she really isn’t here and there is nothing that anyone can say or do to make it better. In the beginning, I didn’t want to be here, I just wanted to end it all to be with Holly. My husband would hold me as I cried and howled for her…the pain inside was incredible and I just didn’t know what to do but I had one person whom I could talk to about Holly, my mum….she would listen to me endlessly and I believe this helped. I can’t stress enough how important it is to have at least one person who understands what you’re going through, someone that you can open up to. Also having a diary and recording all the special moments of your friend. I think that dogs know when it’s their time to leave us and there isn’t a thing we can do about it.

    • christine nightingale

      Scotty I feel so sorry for you. that is just awful. sorry to say but I am someone who would not forgive my partner for letting that happen. Cannot offer you any comfort at all………just so sorry this happened

    • Lisa

      You are not alone Scotty. I am feeling as heart broken as you. I don’t want to eat, sleep or anything and no one else completely understands how my world has been torn apart after losing Hazel just this past Monday. Nothing helps and I keep turning my head toward my living room where she would sleep on the ottoman expecting her to be there. I don’t usually post either – in fact I don’t even have a facebook account but I wanted you to know that you’re not alone. Below is a beautiful article I read and it gave me SOME comfort. I hope this helps just a little. 9 Things Your Deceased Pet Wants You to Know
      1. There’s nothing that could have been done differently
      A Soul’s path is planned before they are born onto this Earth. This plan includes all possible exits from this world. And when the Soul leaves this Earth, know that this exit was part of their Soul’s plan and a specific choice made by their soul.
      There’s nothing you, or anyone, could have done differently to save them. The time at which your Pet’s Spirit leaves this world is no one’s doing, it’s no one’s fault.
      When it’s the Soul’s time to exit their physical body, everything that can be done, has already been done. Everything that needed to happen, did. Your pet wants you to know that there’s absolutely nothing you could have done differently, you did everything exactly right.
      2. They chose you as their parent(s)
      Just as the Soul chooses exit paths and plans for their life, your pet also selected you as their parent.
      Your dog, your cat, your bird – chose you, as the one who would make them feel the most loved and bring them the most comfort and joy while they were here. And you did.
      Your pet wants you know that you were and are the perfect parent.
      3. They understand your sadness, but would rather see you happy
      As a Spirit now, your pet knows that sadness is part of the grieving process, but they wished it wasn’t.
      Remember how, when they were alive, they would snuggle up next to you, sitting by your side (or on top of you), whenever you were feeling sad or feeling bad? They wanted to make you feel better *just like you thought* and they wished they could do something to make you happy, then. And they still do, even now, They don’t want their exit to have brought pain, in fact, no one does. But they understand that this is part of the process.
      They want you to remember the happy, love filled, and joyous times you spent together, and look back upon them with gratitude and thanks. They believe the time you spent together was a cherished gift and that this gift is a call for celebration – and smiles.
      4. They know you loved them and hope you know they loved you back
      Your pet doesn’t want you to wonder if they knew how much you loved them, they do.
      It’s said that grief is the final gift of love given from one to another, and the depth of that grief is a measure of the strength of the love between the bond.
      They know how deeply you loved them, and they want you to know that they loved you back in equal measure (if not more!).
      5. They’re still right by your side
      You aren’t alone. They aren’t gone forever – they’re still right by your side. And they always will be, if you let them. The Spirit World exists right alongside our physical world, and while your pet may no longer be occupying their physical body, they’re still with you in Spirit.
      And remember, that’s who you loved in the first place. You loved their mannerisms, their attitude, and their personality – all elements of their Spirit. You didn’t love them for their fur, or their one standing straight up ear, or their snaggle teeth (ok, maybe you did a little). Mostly, you loved them for who they were as a Spirit, and that Spirit, still exists right beside you.
      After they pass on, your pet wants you to know that they still cuddle up next to you, still join you on the couch, and still want to be with you, if you want that too.
      6. They still want to do things with you
      They’re still here, in Spirit form, and they still enjoy your company and want to do the things you always did together.
      If they used to ride shotgun on car trips, or they used to love accompanying you on hikes, bike rides, or jogs, or they used to love sitting on your lap while you worked late at night – you pets wants you to know, they still enjoy doing those things, and still want to join you.
      All you have to do to invite them along, is pat the couch beside you and encourage them to jump up, or give them the okay to hop out of the car and accompany you on the hike.
      7. They don’t want you to regret the way that they died
      This is a sad one, especially for us. Mama died suddenly and in my husband’s arms, and her final moments are images he can’t shake. And he’s not alone. Nearly all pet owners have some sadness or regret about their pet’s final moments.
      If you had to carry your dog into the vet to be put to sleep, your dog does not want you to regret this choice. It was their choice, too, to be in your arms as they took their final breaths, and to be surrounded by your love as their Spirit left their body.
      Your pet wants you to have no regret and to have no sadness, they want you to know that these were their choices, and you honored them perfectly. You did exactly what they wanted.
      8. They know you often loved them more than you loved yourself
      Even if you didn’t have proper food to eat, they know you somehow managed to buy them food and treats. Your pet knows that you often showered them in more love than you ever showed yourself. They know this, and they have deep gratitude for your love. This is exactly why you were the perfect choice as their parent, and they want to thank you, for loving them even when at times it seemed so hard to love anything at all.
      9. They loved you more than they loved themselves
      Your pet was an individual, too. They had things they felt badly about and things that they knew could be improved upon, and reasons, that they felt they were unworthy of love, just like we all do.
      But you, you were always supportive, always loving, and always doting, even at times, when you thought you weren’t. Your pet loved you, and loves you, more than they ever loved themselves.
      And if you’ll allow it, they’d like to still be a part of your life.

      • Scotty O'Leary

        Thanks Lisa. I am so very sorry for your loss.I feel your grief and pain so please know you are not alone.
        I truly believe the intense bond that forms between our four legged friends and ourselves is something so special that for those who have never experienced the joy, laughter and truest companionship that they give so freely, cannot possibly understand the immense and profoundly painful loss we feel when our best friends leave this life.
        Thanks for the helpful points in you post. I so hope it is all true !
        Even though I still miss my girl on a daily basis I have found that making a memorial grave with a perpetual candle burning helpful as I have somewhere to go and still ‘ talk’ to her and get through this most painful grieving. She is still with me everywhere I go as the memories are so deeply ingrained that I know I will miss her for the rest of my life.

  • Kate

    My 12 year old bulldog passed away last weekend. I’m a total mess. I miss him sleeping with me. Greeting me when I get home and just being there. I see him everywhere in the house and sometimes I think i hear him. Advise of how to get thru this is much needed

    • Tam Murphy

      This period is the hardest & no matter what anyone says to you, nothing makes any sense.
      It will be seven weeks tomorrow since my girl Holli Jayne left me and I’m still grieving for her. I cry nearly every day but I am better than I was….not long after she had passed all i wanted to do was to end it all and be with her but that’s not fair on my loved ones, so I thought to myself that I must push through and remember her as the beautiful and gracious girl that she was. It’s very hard but I have to be strong….just as you will become. It may take you a long time to recover but I can suggest to just surround yourself with people who understand what you’re going through and make you feel better and to write down the memories of your fur child so that you can read your story when the time feels right. This was great therapy for me.
      Keep in touch if you need to chat.

  • KW

    I just lost my little buddy 3 days ago. Had a tumor that ruptured, and could not be saved. Its tough. I have kept his collar, favorite toy, and a couple other things that are important for me to keep. I just don’t know what to do with everything else. Is it too early? Might sound selfish, but I do not want to donate anything. I wanted his toys to be only his and special. I am going to dispose of them, but not sure when? If I do it now, I feel guilty for some reason, like it is disrespecting him. Some say it is better to get rid of things now so you can have a more special memory and not constant sorrow reminders. I don’t know which to do. Any thoughts?

  • Jared

    I recently lost my dog that I had since she was born. Border Terrier Jack Russell cross. Loved her to bits. 21 years old, born on summer-solstice. I miss her every day and I feel like my life is slowly becoming less worth living. She was in my arms at home as we have her the injection and I feel as if though I killed her. This is a sadness I haven’t felt in a long time.

    • Tam Murphy

      Your baby lived a long life and that maybe not be long enough for you or any of us but she was ready to leave. My girl left me only 5 weeks ago and in the beginning I couldn’t stand life without her (read my previous posts) I just couldn’t see a way forward but I slowly am finding my way. It’s been so difficult and I think about my girl constantly but I have surrounded myself with photos of her (something I couldn’t bare the thought of a couple of weeks ago) but I’m getting there. Time heals but doesn’t cure. You will feel better but just don’t push yourself, grief has no shelf life.

    • HL

      I put down my 13 year old baby boy back in November and I still feel your pain. He passed away in my arms and I still feel the guilt of putting him down. Everyday I wonder if I made the right choice. I just want to be with him again. I miss him so terribly much, he was my first love. I have never loved so much until I had him.

  • Theo

    The worst part is when they don’t return home and you don’t know where they are. The thought that my dog might be suffering somewhere is unbearable.

  • v

    hello guys today will be the first night without sleeping next to my dog. knowing that i won’t wake up to him biting my fingertips anymore, makes me feel empty. i might have other dogs but this dog he was different he had a unique personality. knowing that i won’t see Maui anymore i just feel different. I don’t know what to do. He was the only reason why I would go out in the morning to train him. what should i do to feel steady

    • Tam Murphy

      Oh my heart goes out to you. I lost my furry baby dog 30 days ago and those first few days were the worst. I couldn’t believe that she had gone….her bed was still here waiting for her to come home from being sick in hospital but she didn’t make it home. Nobody can tell you what to feel but can only explain their own feelings. It’s a pain that won’t leave you for a while and you feel that you’re going through hell and that its not fair that they left you this way. It’s perfectly normal and you will get better…something that i heard so often but it will be in your own time. Cry until you think there is no more tears…believe me there will be. I cry for my girl all the time but each day is a little easier…I emphasize on the little. I’m still not feeling myself but I have to get better and try to heal my broken heart. Just ride the wave and let your emotions out.

      • Victor

        Reading these do help, I lost my dog 30 days from tomorrow, it’s hard it really is I go to bed he’s not there i wake up he’s not there. He’s gone I know this and no one really understands what I’m going through except for the people on here. It’s been comforting . I will rewind a bit on that dreaded day 3/7/17 as my dog lay in my arms after the shot was administered I asked him Lexxy i love you so much, what do you think about me getting another dog? With all his strength he lifted his head looked at me while tilting his head and licked my nose put his head back in my arms took 2 big deep breaths and passed away. I think my dog told me .,,,be happy daddy I love you and thanked me. Right now I’m on the bus going to work and it’s hard from bursting out in years as I write this. The next day I started looking for a new boy to fill my life, he won’t replace my Lexx but I feel he will honor his memory after all I did get Lexxys permission. While at home every pix every spot in the house I see I think of the memorys and start to cry,it’s getting better but after 17 years it’s hard Lexx not being there . In less than 2 weeks Roux will arrive to start a new chapter. For all of you that have recently lost your best friend…Ow what your going through and I’m so sorry for your loss and I know words can never heal that hole your feeling I’m sorry.

    • Wendy

      Hey there, It is for me too the grief is so intense right now I don’t even want to go on. Maybe we can gain strength from each other….

      • Corrine Codner

        oh how i know the feeling of not wanting to go on or live without your dog, i would share that with some of my friends and thought it horrible that i was feeling that way, gosh when she said that i felt like i was an alien or something, then i went on this site a site that people who have lost a pet will totally understand me and how i felt. Dear friend it will get better they told me that and i didnt believe it and i didnt want it to get better i just wanted my baby back and I still do, i also wish i could have my baby back and love and kiss on her

      • Tam Murphy

        We sure can Wendy. I am so very thankful that I found this site and can chat to people who know exactly how I feel and have experienced the loss of a furry child. Reading all your heartbreaking posts comforted me when I felt I was going to give up on myself and thought that I was going insane…how would I ever make it through another day without my girl Holli Jayne but I just cried and cried and held her scooby toy .Those first few days were horrendous but I’m still here and I talk to her as if she is still around. I have also been writing down all of my memories of her and this keeps her alive in my mind. I keep the book on the table, along with a pen and each time I think of something, I write it down. At first there were tears but I believe it’s helping me with my grief. If I can help anyone by listening, please feel free to message me.

  • Neil

    Hello fellow pet lovers.
    It’s been two months now and the emptiness remains overwhelming for me. Misty, my Rat Terrier lived a long and wonderful life, 13 years however the last several months were tough battling IMHA. For those who are familiar it’s a tough hill to climb but I am at peace everything medically was done to support her. Like other owners I share the loss of my best friend and loved companion. My routine and the complete feeling of responsibility are gone from my life. There appears to be complete disruption in day to day activity and flashbacks are painful. Viewing the many pictures and videos cannot occur without tears and a general feeling of emotional stress so I have stopped for now. The memorial I created helps I light a candel as a life symbol everyday but it cannot replace the bark, and hugs I miss so much. Being there for her hugging tightly I was the last thing she heard and saw before her peace.
    I am taking it slow and hope I can recover but something has changed in me, something has been lost. I cherish all the memories, head out the window sitting on my lap her ears flapping, nose acutely sniffing the fresh air. Misty, you are missed but not forgotten.
    Wishing us all peace and recovery for out losses.

    • Corrine Codner

      Thinking of you and your loss, I will say it has been three months for me since my babies left me, the tears are less but the heart ache is still very hard, praying now for you

      • Tam Murphy

        Thanks so much Corrine for your message. It’s three weeks tomorrow since Hol left us. I still can’t believe she has gone and lately I am forced to listen to family members saying move on and let Hol rest in peace. Grrrrrrrr….do they actually think I want to be in this spot? I am yearning to move on but I can’t force my mind to do something it’s not ready to do.

      • Corrine Codner

        I too had to hear over and over “she was old and lived a happy life” and etc, boy and so many people that i called dear close friends didnt even call or send a card, what if one of my kids passed, my fur babies are my kids i understand not everyone thinks of pets as i do but to call or send a card they would be doing it for me , some people dont realize how precious the phone call is or the card, or a hug,

    • Tam

      My baby girl Holli Jayne, an English cocker spaniel was only 10 years when she passed just 3 days ago from Pneumonia. She had been battling Lymphoma for 3 months and things seemed to be going well with the treatment….the vet Doctor called her a dog as ‘tough as old nails’as she was coping so well with the chemo. She then contacted pneumonia and became so very weak within just a couple of days. We took her straight to the vet and Hol was admitted….the morning after, she died, along with my heart. I can’t believe she is gone and that i will never see my girl again. Everywhere i look around the house, i see her but it’s my imagination…i yearn to have her in my arms again that i could burst inside. I am an emotional mess and yet my husband who loved Hol dearly is coping really well. I am dying inside and my husband is carrying on with life as if nothing has happened. I feel like screaming at him and saying ‘can’t you grieve like me?’ It would be a great comfort.
      I miss my girl so much and keep asking why she left us…..I’m heartbroken. T

      • Corrine Codner

        Hi, i know how you were feeling my husband didnt even want me to cry in front of him, he said he grieved his way and that was to stay busy and basicly stuff it, so i had to try and put on a happy face when he was around so as not to bring him down, so I went to Hospice and they have a program for going through a loss and it can be any kind of loss and they were so helpful, cause your in a group and can share with those people and then you get to know them and before you know it your getting better and have made a few friends. this site here is wonderful but if you want home town help go to Hospise

      • christine nightingale

        Tam I can really relate to you. My partner was very upset when we had to say goodbye to my beautiful Labrador Lucy but within 2 days he was fine. I am still in a bad way since the 1st April. He says “we live, we die” she had a great life. If only it was that easy for me, because I have had days when I want to close my eyes and not wake up. My partner says I am not normal to keep feeling the way I do and others have said “get another dog” It really can be a lonely time grieving for your furbaby. I loved my dog more than anyone, even my partner. Anyway, I know how you feel I cant comfort or give you advice because I am struggling myself but I understand your pain because I am going through the same as you. Take care

    • Linda

      Hello my name is Linda and our beautiful beloved greyhound of nearly 14 years old was put to sleep on 7th March at 12pm. My heart aches and my body feels heavy, I am finding it hard and crying a lot of the time, sometimes without any warning tears will be rolling down my face. I miss her so much, my partner tells me to remember the happy years we had together, we did everything together. I have read that it will get better but at the moment things are worse. I have been grieving for her from December 2016 when she began to get ill knowing that our time together was soon to end. Nicole I love you x

      • Tam Murphy

        Hi Linda,
        I feel your pain. My beloved Cocker Spaniel named Holli Jayne passed away on March 8th after battling Lymphoma….she was 10 years old and we had her from the age of 7 weeks. The pain is unbearable and I can’t seem to see a light. Today I made the decision on seeing my Dr to get some counselling as my husband doesn’t share my pain, so it’s causing a little conflict in our household and I need to talk about my feelings towards my girl, he doesn’t see a need.
        Please, if you need to talk to someone….feel free to contact me as I know exactly what you’re going through.

    • Hazel

      I understand your pain Neil, I lost my Pug in November last year, from the same condition, she suffered so much in the few weeks before she died with a blood transfusion and the seemingly endless round of medication.
      She stopped eating and drinking on that last day and I took her to the vet, she collapsed and died on his table, she was only 7 years old and such a character. I miss her terribly, still can’t believe she has gone.

  • Erica

    13 days ago I wrote about my dog Murphy. I wrote about how his health was deteriorating and I feared having to make the painful decision. Well, yesterday we put my sweet boy to sleep. I have so many emotions mainly sadness but also regret. I keep thinking was it too soon? He had his ups and downs. After we made the appt,he seemed like he was doing better. I was so confused and felt horrible. He got excited when it was time to get in the car. I can’t stop thinking about everything that happened yesterday and the time leading up to his last day. I feel terrible like I gave up on him. Maybe we could have had more time before he got too bad? I was expecting him to be around for another 5 years. My heart feels broken and my belly hurts. I mention things that are on my mind and my family says I’m being too hard on myself or they ask why I’m doing this to myself? I feel a very small sense of relief only because now I don’t have to worry about what I’m going to get him to eat or is he going to gain weight or checking his stool to see if it changed from the black, tar it was, wondering if he was going to vomit today or wondering if he was in pain and how much pain he was in. I keep second guessing my decision which is hurting me. Also, when they euthanized him I stayed in the room for the first shot but not the second. The vet said he didn’t know I was there but I can’t help but wonder if he did. As you can see I’m tearing myself up over losing him. One minute I feel OK and the next I’m miserable and crying or feel like all the air left my lungs. I’m not sure what I’m trying to get from writing this but I just feel the need to write my feeling and thoughts. I just hope I made the right decision. I love you, Murphy. You were the best dog and loved me unconditionally. You were by my side through the good and bad. I wish I still had you in my life. You definitely were the best dog to adopt and made my life so much better. I’m sorry for the decision I made. Love you Murph.

    • Corrine Codner

      Oh how i know how you feel, I had to make that decision for two of my babies within one week of each other, I can still see my baby on that table she looked at me and then they gave her the shot, I will never forget her beautiful face looking at me. I know i cry less than i did cause it happened in Dec 2016 but I still get so very sad every day thinking of them and how i wish they were with me romping around and having fun, and the many days they gave me kisses, it is so very very had to go on each day without them

    • Victor

      Erica, your story sounds identical to my own story ,i feel like I let my dog down by taking him to the vet , the doc said his organs were shutting down he had almost no BP he left in my arms , I cry everyday he passed March 7th 2017 at 953am . Lexx was my world. He was nearly 17 I got him at 3wks , I bottle fed him , our bond was as close as close could get.

      • Erica

        I’m sorry for your loss, Victor. This Friday will be one month since that dreadful day I put him down. I still cry and go over every detail in my head. I have been having some hard day’s lately. I still second guess my decision and can’t believe he’s gone. Murphy was my dog, he loved me the most. He would follow me around and wanted to be by my side. My heart is still broken. I hope you will find some light in this dark time. It sounds like your dog lived a long and happy life by your side. I wish I could tell you not to feel guilty or blame yourself but I have to work on that myself before I can say that to others. Our dogs were loved greatly and they knew it.

  • Margie Roe Bowling

    We have lost our beautiful German Wirehair Pointer. He owned our hearts for 10 years and took it with him when he died 21 days ago. He just laid down beside my husband’s chair and in front of me and died during his afternoon nap. We are devastated and the tears won’t stop . No warnings , no reason. We loved him so much our souls are broken.

    • Diane

      Hi Margie. So very sorry for your loss. I know how you feel. A piece of me died Jan 11 when my pug Lola passed after 16 and a half years. I cry every day still. I feel so lost without her and an overwelming sadness follows me everywhere daily. I know. How you feel. Hurts so bad. I will never get over it, I am trying to get through it. Very hard.

    • Corrine Codner

      My babies oh how I miss my dogs. One passed on Christmas eve and the other New Years Day, I miss them beyond words, so I know how you feel, we did end up rescuing two dogs from the pound and they are a joy to us, but the dogs who left me are hard to live without. I see these two new ones playing and wishing my two that passed were here to enjoy the day.

  • Erica

    Hi
    My name is Erica and today I write to you about my sweet furbaby Murphy. Murphy is a schipperke that I adopted almost 8 years ago. We think this year he will be about 10 years old. Murphy is still with me but I know his days are numbered. Just last week the vet found a mass in his abdomen area that is pressing on his small intestine. He has lost weight and isn’t eating like he use to. My heart is already breaking because I know what is coming. The cost to have the surgery, his age and the chance that the surgery won’t help even help him leaves me feeling terrible as a person. How can I not do everything for my furbaby to prolong his life with me? Murphy has a follow up appointment in a little over a week at which point I will have to tell the vet we are not doing the surgery. I guess we will discuss the next steps to make him comfortable until the day comes where I have to make the dreadful decision. Murphy has been by my side since I adopted him and he has always been considered my dog by everyone. He loves me the most. Since I had my 2 girls I feel I have neglected him some. I feel regret and sadness and Murphy isn’t even gone yet. My husband is trying to be supportive of the way I feel even though he doesn’t understand. He doesn’t have the connection with Murphy like I do. I feel like I shouldn’t be crying and carrying on like this when he isn’t even gone. I have read the other posts of people’s dogs that have passed and we aren’t there yet. I guess I’m writing this to hopefully help me feel a little better even if it’s just a small fraction. I’m hoping the guilt that I have over not doing the surgery doesn’t leave me regretting my decision. I love my Murphy.

    • Corrine Codner

      Oh how i know how you feel, as my sweet Pepperann at age 15 was slowly not wanting to eat she always had stomach issues, i would cry and cry thinking of the day i no longer would see her sweet little face, i then would feed her through a syringe and water the same way and then she would liven up and we did this back and forth way of life for almost a year. and everytime she would stop eating I would cry myself silly thinking how will i live with out her. Then she started to loose weight and then i really knew that her time was near, I miss her beyond words, even when she was here with me sleeping most of the day I knew she was still here with me and i loved her sweet little face looking at me, it is so very hard knowing their little lives dont live long enough and like you i cried a whole year thinking of the day i would have to let her go. But then that time came and oh so very very hard, I wish i could say she is in a better place and happy at rainbow bridge, but my selfish self wants her back, I feel for you and and truly know what you are feeling

      • William McSpirit

        I hate the rainbow bridge stories. You can have your stories. I want my dog! I don’t know if that bridge exist anymore than I know the date and hour of my own death. It’s all great and all but until then I never get to see my dog ever again. I felt the same way when my mother died. The “She’s in a better place” crap gets on my nerves. I don;t know that? You don’t know that! Say your sorry for my loss. Be supportive but save the fairy tales. I had an appointment to put down my pug tonight. I backed out! I will keep her going until she stops eating or drinking or is in pain. Yes, she’s paralyzed from the neck down but she still does all those things.

  • Susan

    I posted a post on here the other day about Cookie our Yorkie who died suddenly at home.Last night I finally put pen to paper and wrote a letter to Cookie and basically cried writing it but telling him about the wonderful way he completed my life,the letter is now in his box of favourite toys and belongings.As I neared writing the end of my letter and describing how his health was deteriorating I realised that some of my tears were for myself and I felt a little bit selfish that my darling dog who followed me everywhere,according to the vet the next day the bloods had come through and cancer could have been his next hurdle,I realised that I should accept that my little buddy had had enough and his body couldn’t take anymore,nature had decided what was best and I had to respect that.It is hard,Cookie slept on our bed everynight,and I always look to his place before I go to sleep,I miss him so much,the whole house is empty and quiet even though 5 of us live here,his presence is missed beyond words.I am glad I wrote the letter as I remembered the fun times,I prayed for him too still do and by doing so am begining to accept that it was his time and my love for him has to respect that.I have read some of posts on here and they helped me a lot.I felt less alone in my grief.

    • Diane

      Hi Susan – so very sorry for your loss. I too lost my precious fur baby. She was 16 1/2 years old. I am struggling. I cry day and night. Feel an overwhelming sadness. She followed me everywhere. I miss her so much. Every inch of my house reminds me of her. My house feels the same as yours … empty and quiet and miss her beyond words as well. I wrote her a letter too, need to finish it. I was so lucky to have her all these years, but used to her by my side all these years. Her absence hurts. I had such a connection with her. The pain I feel hurts so badly. Feel like a piece of me died with her. Constant sadness and emptiness I feel. I lost my best friend. The loss of her is one of the worst pains I have ever felt. I think it is acceptance that is holding me back from moving forward. Felt like she would be with me forever. Not sure what I thought … all dogs do go to heaven. I have been all over the internet trying to find ways to cope. Talking to others that have lost their fur babies and know what and how I feel helps.

      • Corrine Codner

        my baby of 16 years passed new years day, oh i know what you feel and what you said about you thought she would be there forever, i thought too, yet i knew her time was limited but i just never thought the day would come, what was i thinking? I would give anything just to have her back, i know that sounds terrible but i miss her so very much. I knew acceptance was holding me back also, i just didnt want to accept it

      • Diane

        Hi Corrine – so very sorry for your loss. I know how you feel. I too miss my fur baby so badly. During this grieving process I realize I will cry and miss her forever. Each day I hope I will feel better. Holding her and hugging her is becoming, and will become a distant memory, and all I have to hold on to are my memories. It’s hard when all you want is to hold them once more. I still can’t believe she is gone. I realize all dogs go to heaven. It takes time. Over 16 years of routines, taking care of her day in and out will take time as my life is forever changed. It will never be the same without her. I need to focus on good memories, all dogs go to heaven, they don’t live as long as we do. She was a family member, like a child to me, my baby forever in my heart. It is a struggle. I hope to get there. I never anticipated how painful this would be. She showed me the meaning of unconditional love. I have been reading losing a family pet is just as hard as losing a loved one. I can say this is true. I hope to find my way by maybe helping out at a shelter, or starting a group for people who have lost a pet. Stop kill shelters. Focus on good. Every animal deserves a loving home like we provided.

      • Susan Ferguson

        Hello Diane,Susan here,it is just over a month since we lost our darling companion Cookie.All of us are dealing with his loss in different ways.For me I missed seeing his little face and so this Sunday just gone I plucked up courage and searched through the photographs on my phone to find a photo of him,using the photo machine in our chemist I selected one and when I saw it I wept.I promptly paid for it along with a lovely frame and Cookie is there for us all to see.It has helped me so much and I hope my family too,he had a special friendship with all of us.My daughters and I scrolled through the photos and videos they had on their mobiles and remembered the fun times and now when I come in from work to a silent house I can look at my photo and say “hello”to my darling boy,and it makes me feel he is less far away.I do sincerely hope that you will find some peace,I think sometimes we blame ourselves for not doing this or that I did and on a bad day revert to this ,my daughter says “Mum don’t blame yourself”and for her 26yrs she is right.Just take a day at a time and eventually acceptance does come ,I think though its different for all of us but I truly believe our pets felt and knew our love and wouldn’t want us to think otherwise.Take care and sending a hug .

  • Corrine Codner

    Hello, wrote on her previously about losing my dear dog on Dec 23 2016, she had a seizure and we tried for three days to save her, then New Years Day lost my 16 yr old, we knew her days were short but oh the pain is like no other, I went a few days to grief share for any kinds of grief and that helped somewhat, we did adopt a dashund from a rescue group and she has brought smiles to our faces, but I think of my dogs I lost and oh how I would give anything to have them back, anything, I miss them beyond words

    • Corrine Codner

      lost our baby pod on christmas day it has and still is very hard , but tears are healing ointment for our hearts; have you thought about another pup, we did end up rescuing from a foster group that rescues dogs , they tend to know all about the dogs behavior, we did rescue and , she has helped us heal

      • Susab

        We have started to look at re homing a dog and have visited some kennels,I know we will never forget Cookie,but at least by looking our family is moving towards acceptance and it would be nice to help a dog with no home.This has helped me so much and I feel less alone in how I have been trying to cope.Good Luck Corrine ,thanks for your kind words.

  • Susan

    We lost our Yorkie Cookie on January 12th 2017.He was 14yrs old and had an amazing relationship with all family members.He had started again with Pancreatitis (he had it when he was 12yrs old and came through)the blood test results came through from the vet after the day he died.He had been at the vets all day on the 12th and on picking him up at 5pm it was great to have my boy back in my arms.We sat on the back seat of the car and was looking through the front seats,I am sure he knew he was going home.He wouldnt drink at all not even when I put water on his lips and my husband carried him into the kitchen thinking he may drink in a famiar enviroment .He collapsed and my husband scooped him up whereby he had a heart attack in my husbands arms and died.The life and soul of our home went out and we are all devastated even though we know nothing lives forever but being strong for my family is hard.We had a funeral for him at home and I have collected his basket and toys and put them in a beautiful box I bought specially for Cookies things.I am tbinking of putting photos in my lounge of fun times we had there were so many but I feel like I am in a fog what more can I do

  • Helene

    I lost my follow collie cross Shadow on 9 December 2016 due to kidney disease. He lived to just about 16 and was healthy up to four months before the end. I ended it before he really suffered and his death was peaceful and although I get relief from that, my life feels very empty and I don’t have much hope. Reading sites like this as I know I’m not alone. Thanks

  • Sandra

    It’s sad to say I probably mourn and loved my dog than some of my siblings! I cared all my life for all my relatives til they died! I raised my daughter on my own her dad didn’t want her than! He shows up when she’s getting married! My dog showed me more trust love and was more loyal than any person. He never ever broke my heart til he died!! My family never has good things to say and didn’t care about our relatives nor came around til they were looking for their will. And people wonder why I love my dog so much

  • Laurie Post author

    Thank you for being here – and I am so sorry for your loss. No matter how long ago our dogs die, we still feel the pain. Many people feel like they can’t live without their dogs. Know you’re not alone, and that grief is a natural feeling after a dog dies.

    Paul, have you talked to a grief counselor about your pain? It seems to me that after three years, the grief should have dulled somewhat. If your pain is still as raw today, it may be wise for you to talk to someone.

    It’s important to work through the grieving process. I wrote an ebook to help people cope – the link is in the article. Have you read any books on surviving pet loss?

    I encourage you to seek help, because it seems like you’re stuck in the beginning stages of the grieving process….and I know your dogs wouldn’t want you to continue living in pain! My prayer is that you find a way to focus on healing and moving forward, so you can live in peace and even joy.

  • Paul

    Three years ago I lost two dogs, siblings, two months apart when they were 12 1/2. One was diagnosed with T cell lymphoma in April 2009 and after chemo went into remission in September 2009. His sister was diagnosed with melanoma on Valentine’s Day of 2011 and had two surgeries, radiation and chemo. Her brother’s cancer came back and we resumed chemo but eventually he could no longer tolerate the medicine. We had to make that horrible phone call to the vet one evening after work- it was time. His sister’s cancer never went into remission so she remained in chemo until her body coup no longer tolerate it. One Saturday morning in October 2012 I knew something was going to happen to her that day. We headed out for a car ride, her favorite, and after a couple of brief silly errands I came out to the car and could see she was on her way out of this life and I drove home in tears. Three years later I’m no better – my eating was affected when they stopped eating and I’ve lost 25 pounds. The pain is as raw today as it was the day they each died. My remaining dog is now 14 and is battling inoperable liver cancer. Surgery and chemo. But she’s still here. Sometimes it’s a struggle to get her to eat which makes me lose my appetite. Not sure what will happen to me once she’s gone. I’ll never be the same after losing these dogs. Yes I try to focus on their full lives, habits, likes, etc but the loss consumes me at the end of the day and I wish I wouldn’t wake up but I know my remaining dog needs me.

    • colleen

      I just lost my beautiful Ginger girl on Saturday morning December10. Its only been a few days but the pain is unbearable. Ginger was almost 13 years old, I still remember that day she drifted into our lives. Now I remember the day she left. My heart is broken and my soul is crushed. I’m just praying that she knew how very much she was loved and that someday we’ll see each other again.

  • Laura

    My dog got killed by pitbull, I seen my little maxy on the floor dead, I can’t get the image out of my head, I keep crying and I can’t sleep at night, I don’t know if I will never get over this.
    This Sunday my mum walked my dog to the park and back. My mum was four door a way from my house, when a pitbull came from behind and grabbed my little maxy by the belly. My mum tried to kick the dog off, but it wasn’t working, the dog was ready to go for her as well. The dog run off with my dog in his mouth, blood going everywhere. My mum was screaming for help, people from the area hear and came out of there houses, one man got some wood and was hitting the dog. It wasn’t working, the women who owners the dog didn’t go near her dog, she was so scared! After a while the dog let go, my mum went to grab maxy, the women told my mum don’t go near him, screaming my dog will kill you. Some other guys got hold of the dog and put him on a lead, when my mum was on the phone to the cab to go to the vet with our dog. Everyone repeating the dog is dead, the dog is dead, nothing you can do! I turned up everyone was grabbing me up saying don’t look, I said you don’t know if maxy is a live! Let go off my fight with them, I seem my dog on the floor bleeding from his belly his inside hanging out. Maxy’s eye open with his tongue hanging out! Still tell him to wake up, crying my eyes out on the floor. I push the people who was holding the dog like “move that dog, get it away from my dog which is dead” The women who owners the dog what killed my dog tried to hug me and push her saying get off me, you did this. My mum was ringing the police at this time, the women started getting a mopping the floor with beach before the police turned up, washing her dogs face to remove all the blood from his face like this never happened! The police took her dog, I went and pick my dog in my arms and all what they was saying was how are we going to get our dog back, didn’t feel guilty one bit. Then trying to ring my doorbell to try a say sorry, it’s not going to bring my dog back!

  • Midge

    So sorry to hear about your dog.
    My little dog was killed by another dog last week while my friend had her. I’m so angry at my friend that I can’t speak to her at the moment.
    My dog went with her dog as her dog needed to go to the vet, so I sent my dog there to keep him company, and ended up losing my best little pooch of 14 years, I can’t belive the grief I feel as my Miss Molly was my life she has been through the death of both my parents and now I feel I have nothing to live for.
    All I do is cry and I feel so angry at my friend even tho I know she is hurting to.

  • Laurie Pawlik-Kienlen Post author

    I’m so sorry that you lost your dog. Surviving pet loss is one of the most heartbreaking experiences – and I know it feels like you can’t live without your dog. At least, it feels like life will never be the same without your beloved dog by your side – and your home isn’t home without your dog.

    May you find peace and healing as you grieve your loss. The heartbreak never fully goes away, but I pray your heart heals and seals in the warm memories and joy your dog brought you. May you know deep in your heart that your dog is resting in peace and waiting for your souls to intermingle!

    There is nothing sweeter than the love of a dog, and nothing sadder than losing that love.

    In sympathy,
    Laurie

  • Nora

    We got our dog, Lady, in May, 2001. My oldest son, chose her, or she chose him. We laughed, we played with her, we loved her so deeply. And we know she loved us. She was such a good girl. She was so protective that we felt safe. We adopted another dog, Kayla, when Lady was 6 years old. We had Kayla until August 2010 when she succumbed to cancer. Her death was hard on all of us, including Lady. We had her and she had us. We healed. It took a lot of getting used to but we did get used to our new normal. In 2011, I lost my mom in April, then my mother-in-law in December. I later lost my dad in July, 2013. Lady knew our pain and our hurt and she was right there with us. She would lay down at my feet the moment I felt sad. She began to show signs of aging, it got harder for her to get up. We would hear joints crack when she stood up. We knew the day would come when we’d have to say goodbye, but we didn’t want it to come. Six days ago she got a little dehydrated with the heat. She had plenty of water, but wouldn’t drink it. We basically forced her to drink water, by dripping water from melted ice cubes above her mouth, putting wet rags on her mouth. She got better. It only lasted a couple days. Yesterday, she wouldn’t drink water or eat. So I started the routine of dripping water from melting ice cubes above her mouth. We brought her in to the vet. We got the devastating news that she had late stage kidney disease and she was going to die from it, just a matter of when. We didn’t want her to suffer, we had seen her in pain the last few days and couldn’t stand it. We didn’t want her to die either. Our need and desire for her not to suffer won, we opted to put her to sleep. I stayed with her until a couple minutes after her last heartbeat, and just held her in my arms. I am so heartbroken. I know we’ll meet again.

    • Ana

      I know this is very old but my puppy just passed away Sunday the same way your beautiful Lady did. He was 16 and just a couple of days ago he stopped drinking water, would just hover over his water bowl. I would put water in his mouth with a syringe. We took him to the vet Saturday morning and got the news his kidneys were shutting down. He was admitted to the ICU and we waited to see if his levels would get better. They didn’t. And his body also stopped absorbing protein. The vet said it was like his body was leaking his fluid everywhere. He had stopped eating a couple of days before and started having trouble even walking. When we went to see him on Sunday his eyes were covered in yellow discharge and his breathing was labored… We made the decision to put him to sleep. I was there with him the whole time… I can hardly breath …

      • kerry

        Ana. Go to lightning-strike.com. its the oldest pet loss forum going. Im going to lose my 13 yr old girl Faith tommorrow. Old age and cancer. Peace my friend.

  • rachel

    Lost the love of my life Aug 25th at 5:33 am. I have been grieving terribly and I don’t see an end in sight. My dogs name is Goliath. Im grieving so badly I vomit. I feel I could have done more to save him and I will forever feel guilty for that. I miss him so badly. ive been asking God to show me that he is in heaven with him waiting for me. If I could jus know that for certain. Right now I feel that if our beloved pets aren’t in heaven, I don’t want to be there . Id rather just be so dead that I don’t even know im dead than to go to a heaven where my heart isn’t. He was my world and I never knew such a love as this…..except the love of Jesus of course. All I can see is his beautiful glowing eyes looking up to me with such love and trust. He had so much life in him yet when parvo took him. I am devastated and horribly depressed. Its the darkest place in the world to be. To want to be with and hold your pet and tellem again you love him, and not be able to. I feel ive failed him. Im so ashamed of myself . I should have tried harder to save him. I look up to heaven and ask God to let me know, somehow, some way, that I will see him again. I feel I cant live if I don’t know this and the bible is not specific on this topic. Isaiah 65 tells us the lion will lye next to the lamb and a child shall lead them….. God gave animals breath just like he gave us breath……..I don’t see any reason for animals not to be in heaven…..more reasons say they will be there, but unless God himself lets me know in a special way, I will forever wonder and I cant go on like this. It hurts too much. With God all things are possible and I will continue to seek him and an answer. He said ask and you will receive. Well, im asking. God please comfort me and reassure me my sweetheart is in your loving arms so I can have peace. Please.

    • Kim

      Rachel, I know it has been two years since you posted your comment but I wanted to address the issue of whether our pets will be in heaven. Scripture teaches that there will be animals, but doesn’t specifically address pets. I choose to rely on what I know about God. He is a loving God and has promised us nothing but joy when we arrive in heaven. I believe if it would make you happy to have your pets in heaven, God will grant that wish because as a loving Father, he wants His children to be happy. I cling to that knowledge of Him. I have lost my entire family and my beloved fiance in the last few years. Losing my dog was far harder than losing any of my family members. He was with me 24/7 and would have died for me. Something none of my family would have done. The only loss that was harder was losing my fiance. I think also there is a difference when a dog is the ONLY one in your life. I believe people who have dogs, but also have other family memebers and pets love their dogs, but when you lose the only one you have, it is so much harder. People used to mock me for saying that UNTIL…. they experienced living alone with only their dog for love and comfort. Then they knew what I said was true. I also can’t believe that God will have plants, flowers and trees in heaven, but not our beloved animals. It wouldn’t fit His character. He created animals before He created Man which tells me animals are important to Him.
      Whenever I have an issue that is not directly addressed in the Bible, then I reflect on the nature and character of God. I believe you will see your beloved pets again and that they are happy and young in God’s presence and since there is no time in heaven, when you appear it will seem to them as if they have only been gone for a moment from your presence. It will seem much longer to you, but I hope knowing you will see them again one day will bring you comfort. I hope these words will encourage you.

  • PATRICK

    I took my eyes off my little cheese man. And he ran into the street, where someone was walking their dog. He just wanted to say hi. And now he’s gone. the quilt and grief I feel
    I have no words for. My heart is broken. Please be aware of what can happen in a blink
    of an eye. Sad man on long Island.

  • lezly

    Im absolutely devastated by the death of my mums dog which at the moment i feel i overdosed him on wormer. I took him to the vets and they said it was kidney failure i promised to look after him and now i feel ive let everyone down i really loved him i went into deniel about his illness and told him to get better and put him on my bed. I found him when i went to bed and he was dead i couldnt stop screaming i think im in shock just want him back

  • Lisa

    Thank you Laurie. I’m actually thankful that my Mom was not here when Alexi died…it would have been very hard on her. While she was ill and at the hospital, he would sleep in her room. When she came home, he lay under her bed. Animals are so compassionate and can sense when something isn’t right. I was blessed to have him and now have to find ways to go on. Reading your blog helps. Bless you.

  • Laurie

    Dear Lisa,

    My thoughts and prayers are with you, during this sad and lonely time. When my grandma died, I thought I would die too. I didn’t have my dogs when she died, but now that I know what it’s like to take care of dogs…I think I’d feel like I couldn’t live without them. Dogs are so much more than man’s best friend or faithful companions! They’re part of us, and why they die we lose a part of ourselves.

    My prayer is that you get through this period of grief as quickly as possible. May your heart heal, and may you find support in places that surprise you! I pray you find people, books, online sources of support, or other things that comfort and help you as you process your grief. I also pray you find comfort in God, that you find peace, joy, and serenity in His presence.

    I especially pray that you find ways to fill the void in your life. May you find love different forms, such as other pets, loving partners, a fulfilling job, or meaningful volunteer work. May your life be filled with beauty and joy – starting now, with the loss of your dog and mom.

    Blessings,
    Laurie

  • Lisa

    I recently lost my beloved companion, my dog of 16 years. He got me through the death of my Mom 6 months ago. It was always the 3 of us and now they’re both gone. I’m beyond devastated; he was the joy of my life and now I’m alone. I guess time will heal, but it doesn’t feel like it at the moment.

  • Laurie

    Dear Sham,

    I’m so sorry about your dog, and for the pain you are in. It’s awful to see your dog suffer.

    Have you read my article about knowing when it’s time to put your dog to sleep? In that article, a veterinarian said that if your dog is suffering, then it’s time to let him go. It’s heartbreaking, but you can’t keep letting your dog suffer.

    Please read the article — the link is at the very beginning of this article about living without your dog.

    If I had a 3 year old daughter, I would tell her that our poor beloved dog is sick, and went to be in doggy heaven. I wouldn’t say anything about euthanasia unless she asks. I’d keep it simple and straightforward: our dog is really sick, and we have to take him to the doctor. He might not come home because he’s so sick – it’s time for him to pass on from this world into the next. If you’re a spiritual family, you can talk about how your faith will help you heal, and about how you’ll see your dog in heaven after you pass on.

    Death isn’t bad. It’s scary because it’s a mystery — but what if it’s a thousand times better than life?? We don’t know what death brings, and I think it’s a mistake to assume it brings “bad” stuff that we should fear.

    I hope this helps, and wish you all the best as you decide what to do about your dog. You WILL survive the loss of your beloved pet, but it will take time to heal.

    Blessings,
    Laurie

  • Sham

    Hi, I have a 4 year old toy poodle whom I love dearly. He sustained a slipped disc which compressed on his spinal cord. He did not have an accident, he just woke up one day like that. He was a very active boy and this injury has caused him to be paralyses from waist down, and incontinent. It’s been 1 year since and he hasn’t recovered. Recently he started developing sores due to the friction and urine when he moves in his enclosure. And they seem to be getting worse. He gets snappy as well and I can’t teach him how to use a wheelie because of that. No one wants to groom him as he barks n snaps. I am having a hard time deciding what to do. He is suffering in this body he was given, and has no control of it. I can’t bear to see him suffer anymore. But I have a hard time coping with deciding to end his suffering. I have been crying non stop for days, I have stopped playing with my 3 year old daughter as well because of this. Also how do I explain to her what I’m gonna do to him?

    Sadly;
    Sham

  • Laurie

    Dear Maureen,

    I’m glad we connected on Facebook. I want to post my response to you here, so other people who feel like they can’t live without their dogs know they’re not alone.

    It’s a horrible feeling, like you betrayed your dog by not doing enough to save his life. My heart goes out to you. I want you to remember that you did the best you could — you did not deliberately put your dog’s life jeopardy! It was an accident. If you had known it would turn out this way, you would have done things differently!

    I wish I could make you feel better, but I just want you to know that you didn’t cause your dog’s death. It was meant to happen for some reason, and I know your dog would want you to remember him with love, joy, and peace.

    Losing a dog is one of the most heart wrenching things to happen to us. A friend told me that losing her dog was worse than losing her parents. I think this is because our dogs rely on us for everything, and are so committed to us! Undying love, eternally. I’ve lost dogs and cats, and it helps me to think that they’re happier now than they were on earth. I have to believe there is a Heaven for our lost dogs and cats, and that their souls will be reunited with ours after we die.

    It’s important to let yourself mourn and grieve your loss. You loved your dog with all your heart, and a huge part of your life is now missing. Mourn and cry and wail — that’s what I did. Eventually, you will feel better, and you’ll remember D. with joy.

    I’ll keep you in my prayers.

  • Maureen

    I lost my beautiful dog tues night, I made the terrible mistake , my husband and I didnt know, he had been crying at night for long time, so we started giving him Ibuprofen, my RX from and ear infection, then he started getting really sick, I dint relate it to that, I think I killed my own boy, I am in so much pain, dont think I can go on, cant eat, get out of bed, nothing….what do I do…I don’t know how to live without my dog..

  • Laurie Post author

    Dear Sham,

    I’m so sorry about your dog, and for the pain you are in. It’s awful to see your dog suffer.

    Have you read my article about knowing when it’s time to put your dog to sleep? In that article, a veterinarian said that if your dog is suffering, then it’s time to let him go. It’s heartbreaking, but you can’t keep letting your dog suffer.

    Please read the article — the link is at the very beginning of this article about living without your dog.

    If I had a 3 year old daughter, I would tell her that our poor beloved dog is sick, and went to be in doggy heaven. I wouldn’t say anything about euthanasia unless she asks. I’d keep it simple and straightforward: our dog is really sick, and we have to take him to the doctor. He might not come home because he’s so sick – it’s time for him to pass on from this world into the next. If you’re a spiritual family, you can talk about how your faith will help you heal, and about how you’ll see your dog in heaven after you pass on.

    Death isn’t bad. It’s scary because it’s a mystery — but what if it’s a thousand times better than life?? We don’t know what death brings, and I think it’s a mistake to assume it brings “bad” stuff that we should fear.

    I hope this helps, and wish you all the best as you decide what to do about your dog. You WILL survive the loss of your beloved pet, but it will take time to heal.

    Blessings,
    Laurie

  • Sham

    Hi, I have a 4 year old toy poodle whom I love dearly. He sustained a slipped disc which compressed on his spinal cord. He did not have an accident, he just woke up one day like that. He was a very active boy and this injury has caused him to be paralyses from waist down, and incontinent. It’s been 1 year since and he hasn’t recovered. Recently he started developing sores due to the friction and urine when he moves in his enclosure. And they seem to be getting worse. He gets snappy as well and I can’t teach him how to use a wheelie because of that. No one wants to groom him as he barks n snaps. I am having a hard time deciding what to do. He is suffering in this body he was given, and has no control of it. I can’t bear to see him suffer anymore. But I have a hard time coping with deciding to end his suffering. I have been crying non stop for days, I have stopped playing with my 3 year old daughter as well because of this. Also how do I explain to her what I’m gonna do to him?

    Sadly;
    Sham

  • Laurie Post author

    Dear Maureen,

    I’m glad we connected on Facebook. I want to post my response to you here, so other people who feel like they can’t live without their dogs know they’re not alone.

    It’s a horrible feeling, like you betrayed your dog by not doing enough to save his life. My heart goes out to you. I want you to remember that you did the best you could — you did not deliberately put your dog’s life jeopardy! It was an accident. If you had known it would turn out this way, you would have done things differently!

    I wish I could make you feel better, but I just want you to know that you didn’t cause your dog’s death. It was meant to happen for some reason, and I know your dog would want you to remember him with love, joy, and peace.

    Losing a dog is one of the most heart wrenching things to happen to us. A friend told me that losing her dog was worse than losing her parents. I think this is because our dogs rely on us for everything, and are so committed to us! Undying love, eternally. I’ve lost dogs and cats, and it helps me to think that they’re happier now than they were on earth. I have to believe there is a Heaven for our lost dogs and cats, and that their souls will be reunited with ours after we die.

    It’s important to let yourself mourn and grieve your loss. You loved your dog with all your heart, and a huge part of your life is now missing. Mourn and cry and wail — that’s what I did. Eventually, you will feel better, and you’ll remember D. with joy.

    I’ll keep you in my prayers.

  • Maureen

    I lost my beautiful beiley tues night, I mad the terrible mistake , my husband and I didnt know, he had been crying at night for long time, so we started giving him Ibuprofen, my RX from and ear infection, then he started getting really sick, I dint relate it to that, I think I killed my own boy, I am in so much pain, dont think I can go on, cant eat, get out of bed, nothing….what do I do…
    Maureen 954-589-0606